Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday night? Mom has had another crazy busy day with her class & lectures, etc... I am finding it really tough to juggle everything that I need to during the day plus write to you every night. There is just not enough hours in the day to do all that I need to & want to. By this time every night my eyes are hurting & are quite blurry from starring at a computer all day long. I was hoping to write to you in the morning but that is not going to work. I am up at 7 am & in school by 9 am. I will figure something out... I may have to write to you every other night until this class is over but I will do my best to write daily. 
 Mom really doesn't have any new updates for you as I have not been talking on the phone much at all. I do know that everyone is doing fine & are well. This coming weekend is Memorial Day weekend so I am sure to be catching up with everyone at some point. I do however have 3 daily prayers to write to you so here they are. May 23~ He alone is my rock & my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. Dear Father, please reveal truth to me. Do I have other crumbly rocks or false fortresses I look to for help, protection, or comfort? Do I look to them 1st & then to you as a last resort? I don't want this kind of arrangement in my life anymore. Please lead me away from them; shakable they are. You are my rock that cannot be shaken. I need only you! Where we find addiction in our lives is a good indicator of false fortresses & crumbling rocks we've set up as a form of " salvation " Seek God for a path out of addiction, whether it be to tv, food, sex, alcohol, drugs,work, shopping----anything we turn to compulsively for comfort & help. Amen.
 May 24~ Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him. All-powerful Lord, sometimes my prayer life seems like a list of needs or a library of superficial thoughts. My heart isn't always in it. And when I think about how a human relationship would fare if there was just cognitive communication with no heart-level interaction, I see my deep need to engage my heart in our relationship. Help me as I seek to open up to you more & more in the days ahead. Ruts in our prayer life can occur when we're bringing out thoughts to God on a regular basis without the accompanying powerful passions of the heart. To pour out our heart in prayer is to tell God our deepest desires, to let him in on our fears & hurts & frustrations & to invite him to join us where we really live. Amen.
 May 25~My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me. Like a burr to wool, like plastic wrap to a glass bowl, like static electricity---charged sock to polyester, like a fullback to the football, like road tar to my car's fender.....may I cling tenaciously to you, O Lord. And may I feel your presence as I hold fast to you. How I always need you! As a biblical metaphor, a right hand represents strength & the place of favor or honor. Today's verse indicates that it is God's right hand that upholds us. We find ourselves, then, the beneficiaries of both his strength & his favor. Amen.
 Well I am all caught up on the daily prayers now. Wow....those were pretty long so sorry about that. Last night Mom wrote to you on your facebook page...did you see it there? I was just so tired that I didn't want to turn my computer back on so I decided to write to you there instead. Kinda switching it up a bit, I guess. Hope you don't mind. Your friends liked it & some commented on it as well. That was really nice. You are so missed by so many family & friends. No one misses you more though than I do. I miss you like crazy. I love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 The evening sky is here as it is 9 pm. I don't see anything shining bright. Surprised at that though because today was super sunny & 88 degrees. It was a hot one but I am ok with that. The clouds are pretty full.... I know you are shining bright somewhere for some to see. I will whisper to you later so be listening out for my voice. Please smile when you here it so I can picture it in my mind. I will smile as well for you to see. Mom is hoping your night is all that you need & want it to be. Enjoy yourself as I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams. I love it when you do my sweet precious son. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!