Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet pumpkin! Today is Monday, October 31st & it is your favorite day of the year.... Happy Halloween my precious son! I wish that we were able to celebrate it together like we used to do but I know you are with Mom...just in your own way now... a different way. Mom tried being festive today & I decorated some pumpkins with glitter..... it was a mess & I was covered with glue & now the apartment is covered in all colors of glitter...lol. I am wearing a bright orange shirt & black leggings just for you. I posted a picture of Mom on your facebook page today. I hope you saw it but if not I know you see me anyways. I am trying to stay as happy as I can for you today. I think I am doing an ok job! It is getting dark already & it is not even 5 pm yet. The little kids will be trick or treating very soon. I miss that part. We don't get to do that where we live now. I so remember dressing you up through the years... I still remember all your costumes.... lets see....you were a pumpkin, a dalmatian puppy, a dragon, red M & M, a pirate, power ranger ( for 2 years... different colors ), ninja turtle, Jigsaw from the Saw movies, Jack Skellington, vampire... I am missing 2 more. You decided that at 13 you were too old to go out so you dressed up & handed candy out to the little ones. I think you got the love for this holiday because of Grandpa. He is like a little kid when he sees the trick or treaters. He loves haunted houses & scary movies...just like you did! 
 Mom doesn't have any updates for you as I have not spoken to anyone over the phone today. Mom did get a message that Uncle Dick finally got a hospital room after being in the ER for 28 hours. Hopefully he will get better fast! I did however have a wonderful conversation with my friend Dean. You remember him right? He was saying how much he missed you. You two always got along so well. Mom also got the chance to speak to Megan online. She is doing ok. She started a new job & really likes it. She is back at DHMC. Guess she was saying that she was having some back problems & at times she can't even walk. That is not good for someone that young. I know she talks to you a lot & that you watch over her all the time. Her little boy, Logan is already a year old. He is a big boy & sure is a cutie! I hear that Ashley, Bianca's oldest daughter is going to have a baby as well. She is 3 months along. It is just so hard for Mom to believe that all of these kids were just kids & now they are all grown up & are starting families of their own. Sure makes Momma feel old...lol! I am sure to have more updates for you during the week but here is the daily prayer for today.
 October 31~ Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I fear no evil; for you are with me; your rod & your staff---they comfort me. The sidewalks are filled today with goblins, or at least ghoulish costumes. Like it or not, many play at being scary. But there have been genuinely scary times in my life, when I had to face real danger & when I truly fretted about the outcome. I've had to walk through some " dark valleys " of disease, disaster & desertion. In such times, each step becomes an act of great courage. Lord, you have found ways to comfort me in those difficult periods. You have assured me that you are right beside me, helping me to take each new step. So how can I be terrified when you are my protector? Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you. Amen.
 Well it is now 8 pm & I am sure the little ones are all tired & sugared up on their candy. They will all be crashing or should be fairly soon. I remember when you did! The sky is really dark tonight but nothing is shining in the sky. I see no moon or stars but Mom will whisper to you as I always do. I hope that your night is fun. Hope you will have a couple adventures along the way as well. Come be with Mom tonight or visit me in my dreams if you can. I miss you so much. I love you beyond any words can express. I know you know this & you feel it in your soul. Remember you are my hero, my wind beneath my wings & you forever live in my heart, mind & soul. Good night & sweet dreams. Again... Happy Halloween Tyler!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!