Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom has had a hard night again last night, but I am doing the best I can. The weather today started out being really sunny & nice but now it is very cloudy & overcast. I know the rain is coming. I think it is going to rain the next couple of days. Mom can feel it in my face. These days are tough as I am in pain a lot of the time but I will not ever complain about it. 
Last night Mom watched the Presidential debate on tv. I have to say that was the very 1st one that I have watched. The election is in 19 days & either way I think we will be in trouble. It is Donald Trump & Hillary Clinton....what a mess it is. If you were here, Mom knows who you would be routing for all the way. I think I am siding the way you would vote. I have to say that I have only voted one time previously but I will be voting again this year. The world is becoming a very scary place to live in. Much scarier than what I ever thought. I now you know all about it as you see it all. Anyways.... Mom didn't really sleep all that much for the 4th night in a row. One reason is because I didn't go to bed until really late & the 2nd reason is because I had a very upsetting conversation with someone. It was mean, angry, hurtful & upsetting all wrapped into one. It makes Mom very sad but I don't think there is anything that I can do to fix it now. I think it just has to settle & lay low for awhile & maybe when emotions are not all over the place & running wild between the 2 of us we might be able to talk calmer & nicer to one another. Time will tell. In the meantime Mom is hurt as I am sure the other person is as well. If you see Mom being emotional about things then you know why, but just know that Mom will be ok. I will have you by my side so why wouldn't I be? 
 Let's see about updates for you.....College is going slow right now for Mom. I am still waiting on my instructor to grade my last 2 exams that I passed in. I called them yesterday & left a message but no one got back to me. I ended up calling earlier today & spoke to Student Services about what was going on. They looked for my emails & found them. It has been 7 days for one of them & 4 days for the other one. I should have already received my next books for my class but nope... now I have to wait another 7 days to get them. This is just a mess. I am honestly not thrilled about the next class anyways but I have to do it. It is Business Math....ugh! Got to get through this to keep moving forward. This will be the last class for the 1st semester for Mom. That went by really fast. Got 3 more semesters to go for the 1st year being done of my Associates Degree. 
 Mom once again has not spoken to anyone at all in our family. Guess this is a week where everyone is busy. I did get to speak to Auntie Kristina today for awhile. That was nice to chat & catch up on things. She has been sick but doing better today. Can you watch over her for Mom will you? Thank you pumpkin. That is all I have for updates for you. I do have the daily prayer though... here it is:
 October 20~ Make a joyful noise to the Lord, all the earth. Worship the Lord with gladness; come into his presence with singing. Sing praise to God who reigns above, the god of all creation. The god of power, the God of love, the God of our salvation with healing balm my soul he fills & every faithless murmur stills. o God all praise & glory, what God's almighty power has made, his gracious mercy keeps. By morning glow or evening shade his watchful eye never sleeps. Within the kingdom of his might, all is just & all is right. To God all praise & glory. Why do we get passionately bothered about the styles of worship we don't like? Worship isn't for us. It's an offering we give to God. Amen.
 As Mom has been writing to you it has gotten even darker outside. I think the rain is definitely coming soon than expected. Mom is going to finish getting dinner set. I made my homemade beef stew with garlic & cheese biscuits & homemade apple pie for dessert. You used to love that for dinner on a cold night. I will whisper to you later tonight as I look to the sky. I know nothing will be shining as it is too cloudy but that is ok. Hope you will be listening out for my voice. I hope you smile when you hear Mom. I will smile through the tears tonight I am sure. Today is 3 years & 4 months since you left the physical world. I always get emotional during that date every month. Have a fun & adventurous evening while Mom tries to sleep. Please come visit me. I miss you so much & I love you to infinity & beyond. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. 
 Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!