Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing pretty good today considering I did not sleep very well last night. Not sure why but it is all good. The weather makes up for it though as it was 72 degrees today & the sun was just shining bright. Mom took the pups for a nice walk & I plan on doing it later this evening as well. They really enjoy the sun as much as you & I do. Tomorrow it is going to be in the 80's. Mom is surely going to be outside for a bit. I know that the weather the next few days after will be rainy & in the 60's. I need to get as much sunlight as I possibly can before winter hits. It's coming & I think it is coming fast. As you know Mom doesn't mind the cold..it's just the snow! 
 Mom did school work today & finished up her chapter. I also submitted my exam. That is 2 in 2 weeks. I am starting to get back into the swing of it again. I have 2 more chapters & another exam & then I will be onto my 5 class of the semester. I will have to wait until they send me my books again but that is ok as I am sure I will find things to keep me occupied for those 5 days of waiting. Mom has so much to do to get her continued education credits going so I think I will be looking into that very soon. No matter what I know you are with me every step of the way. I thank you so much for it all, Tyler. I need you. I will always need you my sweet precious son. 
 Mom doesn't have any updates for you tonight. I didn't talk to anyone at all today. I kept to myself most of the day. It was kinda nice actually. I got many things done. I know you saw Mom being emotional... I am sorry. I am ok though. Guess it was just one of those days. Mom found a poem that I want to write to you though. Here it is:

A Picture of You

I only have a picture now, a frozen piece of time
To remind me of how it was. When you were here & mine.
I see your smiling eyes, each morning when I wake
I talk to you & place a kiss upon your lovely face.
How much I miss you being here, I really can not say
The ache is deep inside my heart and never goes away.
I hear it mentioned often, that time will heal the pain
But if I'm being honest, I hope it will remain.
I need to feel you constantly, to get me through the day.
I loved you so very much, why did you go away?
The angels came & took you, that really wasn't fair.
They took my one & only Son, my future life. My heir.
If only only they asked me, If I would take your place. 
I would have done so willingly, leaving you this world of grace.
You should have had so many years, to watch your life unfold
And in the mist of this, watch me, your Mom grow old.
I hope your watching from above, at the daily tasks I do.
And let there be no doubt at all, I really do love you.

I hope you like that poem. I certainly do, Tyler. Its so true. I miss you so much. I love you more than words can say. I look at your picture all the time. I talk to you throughout the day. I know you hear Mom. I know you hear my every word to you. It makes me smile knowing that you do. Mom will be whispering to you later tonight as well. I am hoping to see the moon & stars shining bright. Be listening out for my voice. Smile again & so will I. Mom hopes that you have a fun night tonight while I sleep. I hope you do all the things you need & want to do. Come visit Mom if you can tonight too. I love seeing you. Lets me see that you are happy & doing well. Mom will write the daily prayers to you tomorrow night as I wrote you that poem tonight. I guess I switched it up a bit. Hope you don't mind! 
 Mom needs to get going now & finish up all the nightly stuff that I need to do. I will write to you tomorrow morning. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow night....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!