Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing as well as can be. I wanted to write to you know because the weather here is kind of crazy right now. We have been in a wind advisory since early this morning & we will be in it for the rest of the night until tomorrow morning. It is so dark here & it is only 3:50 pm. It is cloudy & raining pretty heavy. Mom has actually had a pretty good day. Took the pups for a nice walk earlier before it started raining. I have been studying all day long. My books were suppose to come in but they never did. Not sure what is going on with that. I tried tracking the package but that particular website is down & having trouble. Hopefully it will come in by tomorrow. I just am finishing up the last 2 chapters of this book & taking my last exam. So far I have a 98 in this one. I am pretty happy about that! I know you are as well. 
 Mom slept pretty good last night! I feel rested that is for sure. I was so happy about that! I really needed it. Mom even has already prepped dinner for us tonight. We are having stuffed peppers & homemade bread. It needs plenty of time to cook so I had to do everything early. It sure does smell good in here. Mom remembers just how much you loved my bread. I sure do miss cooking for you my sweet precious son! I miss so much with you. I think about it all a lot of the time but honestly I try not to as it makes me so sad. I try to be happy as that is the way I know you want me to be, I know that you are at peace & you are happy where you are. Mom just wishes that it didn't have to hurt so much all the time. I am trying my best.... I really am. I will eventually get there but I'm not there yet & I know it will take a lot more time. 
 Mom did not talk to anyone last night but I did get the chance to talk to Auntie Kristina today. She & Mark have been sick with that stomach flu that is going around. Hope they feel better soon. I chatted with my friend for a few minutes today online as well. He told Mom to tell you hello. I just think that is so sweet when he says that. It makes me smile & my heart shine. I know you can see that. Remember Michelle that went out with Spencer? Her & her boyfriend became parents yesterday. They have a little boy. His name is Wyatt. He sure is cute. I am sure you were looking down on them. You were always close to her. Today is also Megan McPherson's Birthday. I wished her a good day for us. If you can make that travel distance to Scotland...go say Happy Birthday. Just don't scare her...lol. Your cousin Ray Jr. will be a Dad soon as well. His wife, Kayla should be giving birth in the next couple weeks. Everyone there is really excited about that. I am also sure that you will be right there with them as well. For some reason I have a feeling that you have met their baby already. Lots of wonderful things are happening for family & friends. Mom can't believe that Monday it will be Halloween. This will be the 3rd one without you. Ugh.... makes Mom so sad at the thought of it. We always had fun decorating & watching horror movies together. You would scare the crap out of me half the time....lol. I sure miss those special times. Do you remember when I dressed up as Mrs. Potts from Beauty & the Beast? That was so much fun. I liked dressing up for & with you! Anyways... I think that is all I have for you today as far as updates go but here is your daily prayer for today. 
 October 28~ He reached down from on high, he took me; he drew me out of mighty waters. Dear Lord, as you know, I've had some difficult times. On a number of occasions in my life I have felt totally lost. I've had no idea what to do. I've been emotionally wounded by people I expected to treat me better. I have suffered grave disappointments. But as I think back over those times, my heart is filled with gratitude, because I cried out to you & you helped me. You transformed some of those situations, but you also transformed me. So I thank you from the core of who I am today. Where would I be without you? Who would I be? I owe my entire existence to you. He is the living God, enduring forever. His kingdom shall never be destroyed & his dominion has no end. He delivers & rescues, he works signs & wonders in heaven & on earth. Amen.
Wow that pray today really hits home for Mom. It has me written all over it. I am forever grateful for still being here after all that I have gone through. Mom takes nothing for granted. I always told you that too. Well, Mom hopes that your night is filled with peace, love & laughter. I hope you have a few adventures along the way as well. Come visit me again tonight while I sleep. I would love that from you. Mom knows I will not see anything shining bright in the sky but that is ok. I know you are shining bright for others who need it more. I will still whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile & I will as well. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. It is forever unconditional love for you. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!