Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom has been quite busy all day long. It has been crazy. Mom didn't sleep well last night at all so I am hoping that I will tonight. I woke up with a sore throat & headache but after taking Alieve Mom is feeling much better. Mom took a nice jacuzzi & that helped a great deal too. After that I got ready & Mark & Mom were out the door. The 1st stop that we made was to go see you. Mom was there for about 45 minutes sitting on your bench, talking to you. Mom left you a red rose so I hope when you see it you think of me. Mark took the pups for a very long walk while we were they so that I could have some alone time. I thought that was very sweet. Debbie stopped by when we were there. We chatted for a few minutes. She knows exactly how it feels because she lost one of her sons 22 years ago. He was murdered during the night when he was sleeping. The story is so sad. After we left the cemetery we went to Market Basket so that Mom could do the shopping that was needed & then we headed to the Dollar Tree to pick up the rest of the stuff. From there we finally got lunch & then made a quick stop at Meme's. Finally we came back to the hotel so we could eat our lunch & then just relax for a bit. Grandpa will be calling when he gets out of work. Hopefully we will get a chance to go visit him for a bit & then to Meme & Bob's before Mark's friend shows up later this evening. Like Mom said it has been a very busy day & it will just get busier. 
 This morning Mom also had to do all the arrangements for the tables for tomorrow evening. I had a plan in my mind but after looking at it I did it a much simpler way. I like that one better so it all worked out & only took me about 30 minutes to do them all! Right now Mark is relaxing & the pups are sleeping next to me on the bed. They are tuckered out that is for sure! That is a good thing. Hopefully tonight they will sleep so Mom can....lol. 
 Mom really doesn't have any updates for you. Bob is still feeling the same way. He is having such a hard time breathing. It is really hard & very sad to watch. He walks really slow & doesn't say much at all. I hope the doctors are going to figure something out & fast. Mom is getting pretty worried about this whole thing. Mom got into an argument with a friend this morning. It started off really good with a usual conversation & then told him it will be good to see him & his girlfriend tomorrow night. He told me she wasn't coming & that he was only going to stop by for a few minutes as he was not going to stay for the whole thing. I asked why & he said he was going to go see his brother Sunday & he had to leave really early Sunday morning. Mom was very hurt because he has known about this for several months & he was doing this. Mom ended up telling him not to even bother as I didn't want him to come at all. Maybe I over reacted but honestly I really don't care. He is supposedly my friend & he was pulling this crap.....words are words but actions speak louder & his actions are speaking volumes. I have been there for him through so much in the past year or more & this is how I get treated. He has really changed since he has been with this girl. Some for the better & some definitely not for the better. Bottom line is that it is his life & Mom has her life. Our friendship is not mixing that well any longer. I am thinking that this was the icing on the cake so to speak to break this friendship. Mom wants positivity & true friendships in her life.....not fair weathered friends. It is sad to say that this is not one of them any more. Mom is hurt right now but I know in time I will be ok. You know Mom..... I always move forward.... well usually I do but when it comes to you I just can't. You heard what I said today while visiting you. I know you are not mad at Mom for any of it. I know you understand what I was saying & why I did. If I did indeed say something wrong....please forgive me, Tyler. I miss you my sweet precious son. I love you so much....too the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero & the wings beneath my wings. 
 Here is your daily prayer for the day: May 12~ You desire truth in the inward being; therefore teach me wisdom in my secret heart. It's easy to put on a " face " for the world, Lord, but the only face I can come to you with is my own. What is true about me even escapes my realization sometimes, until I enter your presence & drop all of my self-notions & wait for you to reveal the truth to me. Sometimes it's not easy to accept what you show me; sometimes I feel ashamed when I become aware of the pride & pretension I've used to get by in my relationships with others. But you lead me quickly out of shame & into your forgiveness, truth, & love & that is where I find the depth of fellowship with you that I crave. Truth may hurt initially when we learn it, just as a needle piercing an infected wound. But after all of the pent-up lies, pride & pretense have been let out, there is a wonderful feeling of relief & freedom that quickly follows as we embrace the cleansing of God's loving truth. Amen. 
 Remember that Mom doesn't have the Inner Peace cards with her this time so I will write you one on Sunday night when I am home. Mom is going to have to close up this letter for now as Grandpa will be calling soon & we will be hitting the road again to go see him. Could you work your magic for Mom & help me out???? Tomorrow it says it is suppose to rain for most of the day.... can you change that Ty? Can you have the rain hold off for tomorrow evening. It has been so beautiful the last couple days. Mom is just wanting this weather for tomorrow as well. Thank you so much. Mom appreciates it. 
 Mom will whisper to you later this evening so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too instead of tearing up this time. Hope your evening is all that you want & need it to be. Have fun while I sleep & if you can come visit me in my dreams. Thank you. I will be back tomorrow morning to write to you as the day & night will be very busy for Mom. Come send me some signs if you can to know you are there. I will be looking for them. Until tomorrow.... good night & sweet dreams. Mom loves you unconditional. You will forever be my everything. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!