Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing ok but very frustrated as you can see. This class is driving me crazy. I am so lost in it, it is not funny. Mom is waiting for Mark to get off his conference call so that he can try to help me out. Since I am waiting I decided to write you your letter. Mom was up again early this morning. I managed to feed Princess & Ozzy, make coffee for Mark like I do every morning, Get breakfast for him & me & then I took a shower & got ready. Mom took the pups for a nice walk. I thought it was gorgeous outside but it was definitely warm for them. Mom will take them for another one later this evening when it is cooler & the sun goes down. Hopefully I will see a beautiful sunset this evening plus the stars & the moon shining bright. Didn't see anything last night. Mom was kind of bummed about that. I thought for sure I would see them all. 
 Today has been another quiet day for the telephone. No one has called at all. Mom hasn't spoken to anyone in the family either. Mom's theory on that is no news is good news, right? I am sure to get some updates in the next few days though. I did chat with Megan today on facebook... she has 7 weeks left before she has her 2nd baby. This time it is a girl. She is naming her Aubrey. I am sure she will be beautiful. Her son Logan is a big boy & very handsome. He is already 20 months old. Time is flying by... it is so crazy. I guess Chris is doing well from what Meg tells me. He has a house & a girlfriend of several years now. I never see him so Mom just goes by what others tell me. My friend's dad is back home now but still really sick. Everything is stable right now. I check in on him every day because I know how it feels to have to sit & watch your love one suffer day in & day out. Right now it is just a waiting game. He refused to go into Hospice & he wanted to be at home so that it what his family chose for him. He is not talking & is on many medicines to help with the pain. My heart goes out to them all. Well that is all that Mom has for today. Here is the daily prayer for May 18~ When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I am not afraid; what can flesh do to me? Many times I have found, Lord God, that your Word has shored up my faith when circumstances have shaken me to the core. Fear, anxiety, uncertainty & worry all disappear like morning mists when the light of your truth begins its ascent above the horizon of my mind & warms my panic-chilled heart. I praise you for your Word, which is able to empower my faith, to rally hope within my soul & to muster the cry of victory because of your great & precious promises. I fear only you because I trust in you alone. What promise in God's Word speaks peace to your situation today? Begin by reading Philippians 4:6-7. It is a good place to start. Amen.
 Here is the Inner Peace card for today as well: I look for the meaning of life within myself. If you want to find a deeper meaning in your life, you can't find it in the opinions or the beliefs that have been handed to you. You have to go to that place within yourself. 
 Well my sweet precious son. It is that time of night again & Mom needs to get going so that I can start our night routine. I am guessing I am behind schedule as Ozzy keeps coming in & jumping on me. I swear this pup knows how to tell time. 7 am & 5 pm right on the dot he jumps on us to tell us he is hungry...lol. Mom hopes that your night is filled with so many things that you need to do & want to do. Come visit Mom if you can. I will whisper to you as I always do a little later in the night. Hope to see your " painting " when the sun sets too. That sure will make Mom smile. Remember you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you more than words can ever say & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. 
 Until tomorrows letter..... good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!