Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is trying to have a good day but this is one of those tough days without you. It is Mother's Day & we always spent it together no matter what. On this day Mom just tries to stay busy doing whatever I can & that is exactly what I have been doing. Mom & Mark got up at 8 am & started to pack things up as we were heading home today. We both got ready & Mark loaded the vehicle up & away we went. We were on the road at 10:30 am & got home at 1:15 pm. Not bad at all for time. The weather was terrible though. We hit snow...yes snow in Newport & Sunapee, NH & heavy rain everywhere else with fog. We did get into some traffic but all was ok. Mom was so glad we were not going North as it was at a stand still bumper to bumper traffic for several miles. It was awful that is for sure. After we got home, Mom got the dogs settled & then I started to put everything away, did the dishes that we brought, started the laundry & now I am writing to you while I have the energy. Mom didn't sleep all that well the last couple nights so I know it will be an early night for sure & I am hoping to get the sleep that I need. 
 Last night the party went really well. There was about 23 people there. Mom got kinda worried towards the time it was suppose to start because I had about 4 people cancel at the last minute. Mom won't lie... I was upset but whatever... it is what it is. I understand that life gets busy & in the way, things come up but honestly some of the " reasons" that I was given were crap... they were not reasons they were excuses that they wanted me to believe but I didn't. Oh well.... their loss not mine! Anyways..... the party started at 6 pm & ended at 10:30 pm or so. Every one had lots to eat, drink, had good conversation & later dancing! Mom enjoyed herself very much. It was nice to see some of them since it has been a very long time. Meme was doing good & Bob was trying but I could see it was a real struggle for him. Mom hopes things get better soon for him. Grandpa & Debbie seemed to enjoy themselves. They all left about 8 pm. Mom will see them again in a couple weeks when I go back there. It will be nice to visit with them again. I really miss our family so much. We are scattered around so it is hard to see everyone. Mom tries her best but I know at times it is not enough. I need to do better for sure. 
 Mom really misses you so much my sweet precious son. You are the reason I am a Mom. I love you with all that I have. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I wish you were here so we could spend the day together. I know that you are with me the only way you can now. Thank you, Tyler. I know you are with me always....not just on holidays or special days....it is every day. 
 Mom doesn't really have any other updates for you right now but tomorrow is Monday & I am sure to have some then. Here is the daily pray for today. May 14~ O Lord, open my lips & my mouth will declare your praise. Sometimes I just don't feel like praising you, heavenly Father, even though I know you deserve my praise 24/7. When my tongue seems stuck to the roof of my mouth & when my soul meets the idea of rejoicing with a grumpy attitude, please trump my temporary funk. Wash over my sour soul with a fresh awareness of your greatness & goodness. Open my mouth by opening my heart & filling it with sincere praise once again. Sometimes it takes an act of our will to override uncooperative emotions & give God the praise he deserves. Amen.
 Just a couple more days in this book of daily prayers & then I will be moving on to a brand new book. This will be the 4th one to you. The daily Inner Peace cards just have a few more to go as well. Here is the one for you today: I enjoy my own company. You're always alone, but you're only lonely if you don't like the person you're alone with. Mom will have to think of something else to write to you after these are all done. I will think of something for sure... I always do! 
 Well pumpkin it is getting to be that time of the night....Mom needs to be thinking of what to have for dinner & then make it. I also need to fold the laundry & feed the pups. I hope that your evening is filled with all the things that you want to do & need to do. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight. Please come visit me in my dreams so that I can see you are ok. That would be the best Mother's day gift I could get. Thank you. I know that I will not see the stars or moon shining tonight as it is raining & the winds are whipping. Looks like tomorrow will be the same way but sure hope the sun peaks out just for a bit for my Birthday. I would love to see a nice " painting " from you tomorrow night....hint hint...lol! Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & hope you will too. Mom will also light a candle for you too. Remember you are my everything. My hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then....good night & sweet dreams. I love you more than words can say.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P. S. Mom just wanted to say thank you to all that still continue to read my letters to you daily. You are so faithful & I wish I could meet every single one of you. Much love & blessings go out to the United States, France, Germany, Canada, Russia, Portugal & Jamaica xoxo.