Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing the best she can. I am so sorry that I did not write to you last night but I was feeling kind of tough. The last few nights I have not been sleeping all that great & I think last night it finally all caught up to me plus I think my sinus are blocked & Mom has been in some serious pain on the right side of her head, face & neck. I know that you have seen Mom so you know what I am talking about. Mom is hoping that Aunt Beck reads this letter & will do some much needed healing work on me. Beck... if you are reading this please help me. Thank you so much. I appreciate it a great deal. I will call you at the beginning of the week to chat with you. 
 This weekend has flown right by as they always do. Saturday, Mom went & had her hair done. I got it highlighted. It is very subtle though. Not sure if I am liking it or not. I wanted something that really showed up but this doesn't. Guess I will see what it is like in a few days. Mom will go again in 2 weeks to get a cut. That should be interesting as I have not had one of them in about 3 years. Today, Mom went & got her nails done, did some grocery shopping & took the pups for a really long walk. Today is the 1st day it has not rained but I see we are suppose to get some later this evening again. Guess Mom will not be seeing the stars & moon tonight or a sunset. Can't wait until the days are sunny more & the nights are just beautiful. I want to sit outside & enjoy the fresh air. 
 Mom spoke to Meme yesterday. She was telling me she went & did some major shopping for Bean. That was so sweet of her. Mom got everything together for her so I would say I am ahead of the game at this point. Grandpa & Debbie are going to give her some money so she can do what she wants with it. That is so sweet too. I really love how our family comes together like it does. It makes me smile. I am so honored to be in this family. Meme was saying that Bob has not heard from the doctors at all yet on the procedure that needs to be done. Something tells me it will be this week. I hope he is doing well. I know you are watching over us all & Mom thanks you for that my sweet precious son. It means the world to Mom. Everyone else is doing well. Just always crazy busy with this thing we still call life. Mark & Mom are headed up to NH in a couple days. Hope the weather is better than it predicts as of right now it is suppose to rain the entire time we are there. Hope Friday & Saturday are descent as there is a lot of things we need to do. Hope you will send me a sign to let me know you are there with us. I miss you more than words can say, Ty. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. 
 Here are the daily prayers I need to catch up on. May 6~ By day the Lord commands his steadfast love & at night his song is with me, a prayer to the God of my life. Come, Thou Fount of every blessing, Tune my heart to sing Thy grace; Streams of mercy never ceasing, Call for songs of loudest praise. Teach me some melodious sonnet, Sung by flaming tongues above. Praise the mount---I'm fixed upon it----Mount of Thy redeeming love. What song of praise can I sing to my Lord & Savior right now that I can carry in my heart & on my lips throughout the day & into the night & even as I drift off to sleep. Amen.
 May 7~ We have heard with our ears, O God, our ancestors have told us, what deeds you performed in their days , in the days of old. Almighty Father, help me be faithful to tell the younger generation about you. Help me not assume either that they know or that they don't really care to hear about spiritual realities. Remind me of the stories of good things you have done in my life when I'm around children & even teens. Then, I pray that you would grant me a gift of articulation so that I can communicate in ways that reach their inner being & stir up  longing to know you. May there always be people in each successive generation who love to sing your praise. we're on a " pay it forward " plan when it comes to the gospel. Each successive generation has passed on the Good News to the next. We now have the privilege of " paying it forward " to those who will come after us. Amen.
 Mom is once again all caught up with the prayers. Here are the 2 Inner Peace cards for you: I only allow that which is good into my life. No one can depress you. No one can make you anxious. No one can hurt your feelings. No one can make you anything other than what you allow inside. 
 I am a worthwhile human being. You are always a valuable worthwhile human being-Not because anybody else says so. Not because you're making lots of money-But because you decide to know it. 
 Mom hopes that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be tonight. May you get to have fun doing things you need to do & want to do. Please come be with Mom while I sleep tonight. I need you. Thank you, Tyler. Mom will whisper to you as I always do later as well. Smile when you hear my voice & I will smile back just for you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter. Mom is going to go relax now before Mark's friend shows up & I need to get dinner going for us all. Good night & sweet dreams. I love you unconditionally......forever you live in my heart, mind, body & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!