Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom has had quite the busy day today for sure. I had to get up early so that Mark could take his truck to the mechanics to find what is going wrong with it now, then we got back home Mom decided that I had some energy & it was not raining so I gathered up all the cardboard that was in the garage & took it to the dumpster. That was 3 trips back & forth. Mark kept saying he would do it but after 3 weeks or longer I was sick of looking at it so I just did it. When I finished all that I swept out the garage & then finally came upstairs. I made breakfast for Mark & I as he was on a conference call, did those dishes & then decided to go into my office & pay some bills on line & then make Ozzy's vet appointment. The rest of the day has been Mom studying & reading a full chapter in her book. I have the last chapter to read tomorrow, then Exam 6 will have to be done & then it is the Final Exam for the whole course. I will be happy when this is all over with. I am seeing the light at the end of this tunnel......FINALLY!! I am looking forward to my next course whatever that may be. Mom is trying to stay off social media & the phones during the day so that I can really focus on this. So far so good. I really am not on Facebook that much any more. In the morning for a brief bit & then at night as well. I have cleaned my page up & have deleted several things on there. I don't ever talk to anyone anymore so I really am not missing a lot. No one calls me on the phone that much either during the day time....maybe Meme or Aunt Beck. Friends are not calling & quite frankly I am tired of always being the one to call them so I have stopped that as well. Friendship is a 2 way street, not a 1 way street & I have noticed that Mom is always the one making the 1st moves & I have decided " no more. " Many changes are taking place & I am completely OK with them all. Change is good & change happens for a reason. I no longer question it as sometimes the answers are not needed they just need to be trusted by a higher power. Mom really wants a drama free, less stress & more happiness in her life. I think I am finally on the road to that now. Baby steps but I am doing it. I am sure you are smiling & saying " Go Mom! " I know you are with me every step of the way & for that i am so grateful for that. Mom needs you by her side. I always will. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I miss the advice that you would give me, the conversations we would have, the laughing we would do. I miss you smile, your voice, your sweet face. Mom looks at your pictures all the time throughout the day & night & I smile every time....even through tears. Tomorrow is June 1 & in a few short days it will be 4 years since I have gotten to see your face. Mom has such a hard time with this month. Please be with me during these trying times. Help me feel better about them instead of despising them. Thank you, Tyler. 
 Last night Grandpa called me as I thought he would. We didn't really talk for very long as Mark was not feeling well & Mom was taking care of him but also because where Grandpa was they were getting a good thunder & lightning storm. He doesn't like being on his phone when that is going on & I don't blame him. Both him & Debbie are doing well. Great Grammy is too. They are just staying busy with working. They will be coming here for a visit in July for a few days. Meme & Bob will be coming as well. Hope Bob will be up for it. Mom hopes he will be feeling better by then. My fingers are crossed for sure. Mark & Mom will be taking them into Downtown Boston to go check out everything & the we will have a BBQ a couple of nights. It will be really fun. Mom is looking forward to it. That is all the updates I have for you today. Not much but more then the last few days. I am sure more will come as we enter the weekend. 
 Mom needs to be thinking of what to have for dinner tonight & go prep it plus it will be time to feed the pups. I also need to take them out for their walk as I didn't do that this morning. Never a dull moment & never seems like enough time to do all the things I want to do. I am behind in the time right now because of the studying. There just was not a good place to stop so I did it until the chapter was over. 
 Mom hopes that you have a fun night while I sleep. May you get to do all that you need to do & want to do. Visit Mom in my dreams if you can. I will be waiting. The clouds seem to be parting so maybe just maybe I will see a moon & stars shining bright in the sky tonight. Maybe even a " painting " from you??? Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Before I close here is a pray for you: Father God, I don't know who or what will cross my path today, but I do know you are my rock & my Fortress. You are my shield & my strong tower. Help me to anchor myself in You & to be strengthened along the way. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
 Here is a thought for the day: I've seen miracles just happen, prayers get answered & broken hearts become new because that is what faith can do. Amen!
 Until tomorrow nights letter to you, Tyler. Good night & sweet dreams. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!