Thursday, April 30, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing better than yesterday even though Princess woke us up at 3 am this morning due to a rainstorm that we got. We were up with both the pups until 4 am or so. We all fell asleep until 7 am though so that was nice. Pups were fed, meds were given, walks were done and then I was able to relax for a bit before I needed to start my day. Meme went to the post office this morning. She wants to go out again tomorrow morning as well. I told her once again that she needs to stop this. She averages 3 times a week on going out when there is no reason to go out at all. Mom will have to go out tomorrow morning to bring a box to the post office and then I have to go get a few groceries at the store. I should be gone only for an hour and that is it. That is my outing for every 2 weeks. Today is Day 30 of the lockdown. Phase 1 of reopening places is starting on Monday the 4th. That is 25% capacity inside of retail stores can be open, restaurants that have outdoor seating can be open but with strict instructions. No bars, theme parks, hair salons, barbers, nail salons, etc.... can be opened yet. I think that will be in Phase II. Every one has been shut down since March 17th. That is a very long time for most businesses. Quite a few will not reopen as they will not be able to recover from this loss. So many are out of work and have lost their jobs or have been furloughed during this time. Mom is praying for everyone still and hoping that things turn around for us all sooner rather than later. A bit of good news though. Mark got his job back. He started back Monday of this week. The down side to it is that it will take 2 weeks to get a paycheck and then his pay was cut 15% each week. That is a lot of money but we will make do with it. We are thankful for his job once again. At some point when the economy gets back up and running he will start getting his old pay back. He is still looking at other work though. He is talking to recruiters daily and doing a few interviews here and there. I think his long term goal is to find a job around this area where we live now so that there won't be any chances for him to travel all the time. Given everything that happened last year to him and getting sick twice in 3 months and long recovery times, PT, etc... I think that is smart on his part. Mom will be able to launch her business in June now. I wanted May but that can't happen. That is ok though! I am happy to make progress! I will be working on that and also my studies starting tomorrow and into the coming weeks. It is what I can do while Ozzy needs to try and stay put the best he can. If I stay in my room, he stays in here with me. About Ozzy... he seems to be doing ok. he is no longer on the muscle relaxer and the steroid is down to 1/2 a pill every 24 hours instead of a 1/2 pill every 12 hours. He gets the pain med but that is weened down as well. Instead of 1 capsule every 8 hours, he is on 1 capsule every 12 hours. he seems to have a lot more energy and wants to jump all the time. We tell him no and he is not doing the stairs. We still carry him up and down them. he is tolerating that better. Mom is still praying that things continue the way they are and he gets better every day/week. I know you will do everything that you can do make him healthy just like you do with all of us. Thank you my sweet precious son. It means the world to Mom to have you by our sides during all this and every day. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings! Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
It has been a fast and busy day here. mark was working at 8:30 am. Mom starting everything and her day at 10 am. I have been running budget numbers for May and June, phone calls, text messages, emails to so many people. Meme has been busy. She steam mopped the floors and vacuumed them. She has been running around the house doing other things too. Bob...well he was up at 11 am and then who knows what since. He has not said 1 word to me at all this whole week. Maybe 5 words to Mark and a little more to Meme. It is hard, very hard to deal with. Mom doesn't go out of her way to talk to him because he doesn't acknowledge it when I do. If he does it is just one word answers. I hope he is able to get to the doctors and soon. He needs to be seen and they need to see if there is anything they can do. He is going downhill and fast! Not good at all.
It is almost 5 pm and that means it is time to get the pups fed and then take them for their walk. Dinner tonight is on the BBQ grill so it won't take long at all. We should be eating by 6 pm or a bit after. The rest of the night will be relaxing and maybe watching a bit of tv before going to bed. At least there is no rain in the forecast. Looks like we can get some good sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. have fun while we do sleep. Continue to watch over us all and fly free, pumpkin. I will light your candle this evening and whisper to you. Smile for Mom and I will smile to you. I will be back with another letter tomorrow afternoon so until then...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you so much. I love you, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing better than yesterday even though Princess woke us up at 3 am this morning due to a rainstorm that we got. We were up with both the pups until 4 am or so. We all fell asleep until 7 am though so that was nice. Pups were fed, meds were given, walks were done and then I was able to relax for a bit before I needed to start my day. Meme went to the post office this morning. She wants to go out again tomorrow morning as well. I told her once again that she needs to stop this. She averages 3 times a week on going out when there is no reason to go out at all. Mom will have to go out tomorrow morning to bring a box to the post office and then I have to go get a few groceries at the store. I should be gone only for an hour and that is it. That is my outing for every 2 weeks. Today is Day 30 of the lockdown. Phase 1 of reopening places is starting on Monday the 4th. That is 25% capacity inside of retail stores can be open, restaurants that have outdoor seating can be open but with strict instructions. No bars, theme parks, hair salons, barbers, nail salons, etc.... can be opened yet. I think that will be in Phase II. Every one has been shut down since March 17th. That is a very long time for most businesses. Quite a few will not reopen as they will not be able to recover from this loss. So many are out of work and have lost their jobs or have been furloughed during this time. Mom is praying for everyone still and hoping that things turn around for us all sooner rather than later. A bit of good news though. Mark got his job back. He started back Monday of this week. The down side to it is that it will take 2 weeks to get a paycheck and then his pay was cut 15% each week. That is a lot of money but we will make do with it. We are thankful for his job once again. At some point when the economy gets back up and running he will start getting his old pay back. He is still looking at other work though. He is talking to recruiters daily and doing a few interviews here and there. I think his long term goal is to find a job around this area where we live now so that there won't be any chances for him to travel all the time. Given everything that happened last year to him and getting sick twice in 3 months and long recovery times, PT, etc... I think that is smart on his part. Mom will be able to launch her business in June now. I wanted May but that can't happen. That is ok though! I am happy to make progress! I will be working on that and also my studies starting tomorrow and into the coming weeks. It is what I can do while Ozzy needs to try and stay put the best he can. If I stay in my room, he stays in here with me. About Ozzy... he seems to be doing ok. he is no longer on the muscle relaxer and the steroid is down to 1/2 a pill every 24 hours instead of a 1/2 pill every 12 hours. He gets the pain med but that is weened down as well. Instead of 1 capsule every 8 hours, he is on 1 capsule every 12 hours. he seems to have a lot more energy and wants to jump all the time. We tell him no and he is not doing the stairs. We still carry him up and down them. he is tolerating that better. Mom is still praying that things continue the way they are and he gets better every day/week. I know you will do everything that you can do make him healthy just like you do with all of us. Thank you my sweet precious son. It means the world to Mom to have you by our sides during all this and every day. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings! Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
It has been a fast and busy day here. mark was working at 8:30 am. Mom starting everything and her day at 10 am. I have been running budget numbers for May and June, phone calls, text messages, emails to so many people. Meme has been busy. She steam mopped the floors and vacuumed them. She has been running around the house doing other things too. Bob...well he was up at 11 am and then who knows what since. He has not said 1 word to me at all this whole week. Maybe 5 words to Mark and a little more to Meme. It is hard, very hard to deal with. Mom doesn't go out of her way to talk to him because he doesn't acknowledge it when I do. If he does it is just one word answers. I hope he is able to get to the doctors and soon. He needs to be seen and they need to see if there is anything they can do. He is going downhill and fast! Not good at all.
It is almost 5 pm and that means it is time to get the pups fed and then take them for their walk. Dinner tonight is on the BBQ grill so it won't take long at all. We should be eating by 6 pm or a bit after. The rest of the night will be relaxing and maybe watching a bit of tv before going to bed. At least there is no rain in the forecast. Looks like we can get some good sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. have fun while we do sleep. Continue to watch over us all and fly free, pumpkin. I will light your candle this evening and whisper to you. Smile for Mom and I will smile to you. I will be back with another letter tomorrow afternoon so until then...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you so much. I love you, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Wednesday, April 29, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but I will explain in a little bit to you as to why. It is 3:30 pm and I am completely exhausted. Tonight is going to be a very early night for Mom. I bet I will be sleeping by 9 pm. This last week had drained Mom like no other. First Omar falling from the roof, then 7 hours later, Ozzy hurt himself and then 9 hours later he was rushed to the ER Vets....40 + hours with no sleep and then just maybe 4 hours every night since then for the last 8 nights is just not cutting. it. Mom is tired all the time and has to just find energy to stay awake during the day. I don't feel like doing anything at all. Before all this happened I had so much energy that I was on the go all the time. I was burning calories and losing weight. Mom was swimming for a couple hours 4 days a week and in 8 days I have not done any. My day and night is taking care of Ozzy and sleeping when I can. My exercise is carrying him up and down the stairs 10 times a day. He is 18 lbs so it is a good workout but the lack of sleep is really getting to me. I know that Mark is feeling it as well. He does get more sleep than me though. I am hoping that tonight will be the night that I can get the best rest that I have in days and tomorrow I will feel like a brand new person. I will update you on that tomorrow...lol.
Yesterday was a long day. We were up at the same time as always. Ozzy was a tough nugget to take care of. He was wound for sound all day. We left at 2 pm to go to his doctors visit. We waited until 3 pm for them to come get him from the car and then another 20 minutes for him to be done. That wasn't it though... we waited another 20 minutes to get the paperwork and more medication. It was crazy. We got home at 5:15 pm. Mom came right in and prepped dinner. We ate at 6:15 pm and then I did the clean up. We put together the new dog ramp that we ordered and started working with both Princess and Ozzy on that. Mom was so tired that I relaxed for an hour or so and then called it a night at 9:30 pm. About the appointment: the doctor that saw him yesterday said that he did not appear to be in any discomfort or pain even after it being 9.5 hours since he had the pain meds. That was good news and she was very happy! Ozzy is by no means out of the woods just yet. She said that what we were doing, continue with that. They want to see him back in June for his regular shots and another exam. He will be off the muscle relaxer as of tonight and he has been decreased on the steroid . Instead of 1/2 a pill every 12 hours he is getting a half of pill once a day. He will be on the pain meds for a bit longer though. She would like to see them go from every 8 hours (three times a day) to every 12 hours. We are going to try that starting tomorrow as well. Ozzy has been pretty tired today though. He is sound asleep right now. He got all 3 pills at 3 pm. He went for a walk and then he is been out like a light. In 45 minutes though it will be time to feed them. He usually eats and then goes for another walk and crashes again until about 10 pm when his meds need to be given and then he is out for the night. Mom is still watching him closely and making sure he is okay. Mom will update you daily. Thank you for helping Ozzy. I know I have asked for many prayers for the little guy and reiki was also done 3 times last week on him. Mom believes that the power of prayer works and it is awesome! I whispered to you several times during the day and night so I hope that you heard my voice. I will whisper to you again later this evening so smile for me and I will smile to you. I will be lighting a new candle for you tonight as well. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Today is Day 29 of lock down here in Florida. They are starting to slowly reopen things back up though. It is good and scary all at the same time. The public beaches here are opened back up and there were talks about the Disney Theme Parks reopening back up soon with heavy restrictions. People are saying that there will be a second wave of this and if we are not careful then we could have a very bad Fall/Winter Season. I sure am praying that it is not true. I hope that we are smart enough to take the precautions that are needed to keep safe. I guess that time will tell on that.
Mom is still checking in with everyone to see how it is going daily. At least a couple calls and texts. I have been doing this since all this started. I will continue even after all this is done and everything is safe and sound again. It is important to reach out to family and friends. Mom just wishes that she wasn't the only one reaching out all the time.....anyways.....
It is almost 4:30 pm and the little guy just woke up. I think he thinks it is time to eat. Not quite but Mom needs to go and pay bills and get all that taken care of before it really is time. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you my sweet precious son. Have fun while I am sleeping tonight and come visit if you can. Fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than words and I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but I will explain in a little bit to you as to why. It is 3:30 pm and I am completely exhausted. Tonight is going to be a very early night for Mom. I bet I will be sleeping by 9 pm. This last week had drained Mom like no other. First Omar falling from the roof, then 7 hours later, Ozzy hurt himself and then 9 hours later he was rushed to the ER Vets....40 + hours with no sleep and then just maybe 4 hours every night since then for the last 8 nights is just not cutting. it. Mom is tired all the time and has to just find energy to stay awake during the day. I don't feel like doing anything at all. Before all this happened I had so much energy that I was on the go all the time. I was burning calories and losing weight. Mom was swimming for a couple hours 4 days a week and in 8 days I have not done any. My day and night is taking care of Ozzy and sleeping when I can. My exercise is carrying him up and down the stairs 10 times a day. He is 18 lbs so it is a good workout but the lack of sleep is really getting to me. I know that Mark is feeling it as well. He does get more sleep than me though. I am hoping that tonight will be the night that I can get the best rest that I have in days and tomorrow I will feel like a brand new person. I will update you on that tomorrow...lol.
Yesterday was a long day. We were up at the same time as always. Ozzy was a tough nugget to take care of. He was wound for sound all day. We left at 2 pm to go to his doctors visit. We waited until 3 pm for them to come get him from the car and then another 20 minutes for him to be done. That wasn't it though... we waited another 20 minutes to get the paperwork and more medication. It was crazy. We got home at 5:15 pm. Mom came right in and prepped dinner. We ate at 6:15 pm and then I did the clean up. We put together the new dog ramp that we ordered and started working with both Princess and Ozzy on that. Mom was so tired that I relaxed for an hour or so and then called it a night at 9:30 pm. About the appointment: the doctor that saw him yesterday said that he did not appear to be in any discomfort or pain even after it being 9.5 hours since he had the pain meds. That was good news and she was very happy! Ozzy is by no means out of the woods just yet. She said that what we were doing, continue with that. They want to see him back in June for his regular shots and another exam. He will be off the muscle relaxer as of tonight and he has been decreased on the steroid . Instead of 1/2 a pill every 12 hours he is getting a half of pill once a day. He will be on the pain meds for a bit longer though. She would like to see them go from every 8 hours (three times a day) to every 12 hours. We are going to try that starting tomorrow as well. Ozzy has been pretty tired today though. He is sound asleep right now. He got all 3 pills at 3 pm. He went for a walk and then he is been out like a light. In 45 minutes though it will be time to feed them. He usually eats and then goes for another walk and crashes again until about 10 pm when his meds need to be given and then he is out for the night. Mom is still watching him closely and making sure he is okay. Mom will update you daily. Thank you for helping Ozzy. I know I have asked for many prayers for the little guy and reiki was also done 3 times last week on him. Mom believes that the power of prayer works and it is awesome! I whispered to you several times during the day and night so I hope that you heard my voice. I will whisper to you again later this evening so smile for me and I will smile to you. I will be lighting a new candle for you tonight as well. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Today is Day 29 of lock down here in Florida. They are starting to slowly reopen things back up though. It is good and scary all at the same time. The public beaches here are opened back up and there were talks about the Disney Theme Parks reopening back up soon with heavy restrictions. People are saying that there will be a second wave of this and if we are not careful then we could have a very bad Fall/Winter Season. I sure am praying that it is not true. I hope that we are smart enough to take the precautions that are needed to keep safe. I guess that time will tell on that.
Mom is still checking in with everyone to see how it is going daily. At least a couple calls and texts. I have been doing this since all this started. I will continue even after all this is done and everything is safe and sound again. It is important to reach out to family and friends. Mom just wishes that she wasn't the only one reaching out all the time.....anyways.....
It is almost 4:30 pm and the little guy just woke up. I think he thinks it is time to eat. Not quite but Mom needs to go and pay bills and get all that taken care of before it really is time. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you my sweet precious son. Have fun while I am sleeping tonight and come visit if you can. Fly high and free. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than words and I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Monday, April 27, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is writing to you from her cell phone. It is 7:45 pm and we are all snuggled in bed. The pups are both sleeping and Mark is on his laptop while I write to you. We have the news on in the background. We are doing ok today but no lie we are tired. Getting only 4 hrs a sleep at night is just not enough for us both. We got a lot done today. Mom made phone calls and sent emails out while Mark had a few calls and looked around for work. He has a call set up for tomorrow so we are keeping our fingers crossed that goes well. Ozzy has his follow up appointment in the afternoon. Mom is nervous about this one. We are all hoping for the best outcome for him. We want him around us for a very long time. Please help him out, Tyler. I will update you on your letter tomorrow night. The appointment is at 2:30 pm so I am sure we will be gone for a couple hours at least. Mom is trying not to think about it but it is difficult. My stomach is all upset right now. It is nerves for sure. Please be with us all tomorrow and every day. Mom needs you pumpkin. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Always remember that my sweet precious son. Mom has the candle lit for you already tonight and I will whisper to you later this evening. Have fun while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams if you can. Continue to fly high and free. Smile to me tonight when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you. Mom is tired and wants to relax a bit while Ozzy is settled right now and sleeping. I will be back tomorrow. Thank you for the beautiful painting in the sky last night. It was breathtaking. I will post a picture on here tonight. You made Mom smile. Thank you so much. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💞
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is writing to you from her cell phone. It is 7:45 pm and we are all snuggled in bed. The pups are both sleeping and Mark is on his laptop while I write to you. We have the news on in the background. We are doing ok today but no lie we are tired. Getting only 4 hrs a sleep at night is just not enough for us both. We got a lot done today. Mom made phone calls and sent emails out while Mark had a few calls and looked around for work. He has a call set up for tomorrow so we are keeping our fingers crossed that goes well. Ozzy has his follow up appointment in the afternoon. Mom is nervous about this one. We are all hoping for the best outcome for him. We want him around us for a very long time. Please help him out, Tyler. I will update you on your letter tomorrow night. The appointment is at 2:30 pm so I am sure we will be gone for a couple hours at least. Mom is trying not to think about it but it is difficult. My stomach is all upset right now. It is nerves for sure. Please be with us all tomorrow and every day. Mom needs you pumpkin. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Always remember that my sweet precious son. Mom has the candle lit for you already tonight and I will whisper to you later this evening. Have fun while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams if you can. Continue to fly high and free. Smile to me tonight when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you. Mom is tired and wants to relax a bit while Ozzy is settled right now and sleeping. I will be back tomorrow. Thank you for the beautiful painting in the sky last night. It was breathtaking. I will post a picture on here tonight. You made Mom smile. Thank you so much. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💞
Sunday, April 26, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is a bit better today. I was able to get some sleep last night so that is helpful. I was up at 6 am this morning. The pups were fed, coffee was made and they went for a short walk. Ozzy is only allowed 5 minutes at a time. We go out quite often so that he can stretch his little legs and to just get some fresh air. Mom is looking into getting him a little wagon of some sort so that we can walk longer and he can be comfortable and enjoy more time out. Hopefully I can find something soon. My arms and back are really sore from holding and picking him up all the time. We shall see how that goes.
I am writing to you now for a couple of reasons...1. Ozzy is relaxing and sleeping while I am writing to you and 2. We are suppose to have a skype call at 7 pm tonight with Tubal and Karen and then after that I have to call Grandpa. This way my letter to you is done and I don't have to worry about how I am going to do everything that needs to get done. I am trying to write to you daily even if it is a short letter. To Mom that is better than skipping days in-between. I know that you understand and see everything that is going on. I know you are working your magic and helping out as much as you can. Thank you for watching over us and making sure we are all safe, healthy and happy during these difficult times that we are all facing. Please continue to watch over us, Tyler. Mom appreciates it so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world.
Not much for updates today I am afraid. Last night we watched Lord of the Rings as Mark has never seen it. We need to finish it though as you know how long those movies are. We shut if off at 8:30 pm as Bob was tired (which amazes me every day because he slept all day long and was only up for 3 hours total) and Mark was pretty tired from not sleeping the night before. Mom watched tv until 11:30 pm and then decided to call it a night. After our skype calls tonight, Mom will watch tv while Mark sleeps. We are taking shifts to make sure that Ozzy doesn't jump off the bed or go down the stairs. We ordered a ramp the other day and it will be here tomorrow so that will give him back a bit of his freedom. The only stairs that we will have to block off are the ones up here. He will still have to be carried but he will have more freedom which I think he will enjoy. Mom is praying that things are healing for him and that we are following the doctors directions carefully but we will find out this week if any of this is getting better for the little guy. I am worried and concerned at what they will tell us but it is something that we have to know. Please help Ozzy, Tyler. Please don't let it be his time to leave Mom. I am just not ready for that yet. He is just 5 1/2 yrs old. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Mom hasn't heard from anyone in a few days. It has been quiet on that end. Meme is helping out a lot lately to help Mom because she knows I can't do a lot right now with always having to keep my eyes glued to Oz. Mark said he was sorry for the argument that we had but honestly there was no emotion in the apology. I told him that and said I would not except it. That may be a bit mean but I know that if you are saying sorry, you need to mean it and not have it just be words and that was exactly what he did. We haven't said much today at all. It is okay though. I think Mom is still needing to process everything that was said and just have more alone time. I am dealing with it and Mom is okay. Don't worry about me!
Little Oz is sleeping in his bed next to me. I feel so bad for him. I question why this had to happen to him or what exactly happened because one minute he was good and the next he wasn't. Was it something that I did and he fell? I keep beating myself up over this whole thing. He doesn't deserve this regardless. He is so young and he deserves to be playing and running around. There is so much going on in this world that everyone is feeling loss of some kind. Businesses are feeling it, retail stores are too. Here, all the theme parks aren't opening for some time now, people are losing their jobs daily and there is nothing out there for them to find a new one, families are losing there loved ones without being able to be by their side, hold their hand and get closure. Instead they are told to stay away, no visits, no nothing and they can't even give them a proper burial. My heart hurts for everyone. I pray for everyone. I pray that it gets better sooner rather than later, I pray that it is safe to be out in public and not have to worry about this virus any more. I pray that there will not be a second wave of this like other countries are experiencing. I guess the second wave is worse than the first. The United States don't need that at all...no one does. Through all this heartache and pain, Mom is trying to stay busy, stay positive. That is the only thing helping me get by.
The little guy is awake and it is time for them to go outside for a walk. He needs a bit of fresh air. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I will light your candle this evening after the calls are done. I will whisper to you before I go to bed as well. Smile when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you my sweet precious son. Remember that you are the wind beneath my wings and you will forever live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later. I miss you so much...more than words. I love you, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is a bit better today. I was able to get some sleep last night so that is helpful. I was up at 6 am this morning. The pups were fed, coffee was made and they went for a short walk. Ozzy is only allowed 5 minutes at a time. We go out quite often so that he can stretch his little legs and to just get some fresh air. Mom is looking into getting him a little wagon of some sort so that we can walk longer and he can be comfortable and enjoy more time out. Hopefully I can find something soon. My arms and back are really sore from holding and picking him up all the time. We shall see how that goes.
I am writing to you now for a couple of reasons...1. Ozzy is relaxing and sleeping while I am writing to you and 2. We are suppose to have a skype call at 7 pm tonight with Tubal and Karen and then after that I have to call Grandpa. This way my letter to you is done and I don't have to worry about how I am going to do everything that needs to get done. I am trying to write to you daily even if it is a short letter. To Mom that is better than skipping days in-between. I know that you understand and see everything that is going on. I know you are working your magic and helping out as much as you can. Thank you for watching over us and making sure we are all safe, healthy and happy during these difficult times that we are all facing. Please continue to watch over us, Tyler. Mom appreciates it so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world.
Not much for updates today I am afraid. Last night we watched Lord of the Rings as Mark has never seen it. We need to finish it though as you know how long those movies are. We shut if off at 8:30 pm as Bob was tired (which amazes me every day because he slept all day long and was only up for 3 hours total) and Mark was pretty tired from not sleeping the night before. Mom watched tv until 11:30 pm and then decided to call it a night. After our skype calls tonight, Mom will watch tv while Mark sleeps. We are taking shifts to make sure that Ozzy doesn't jump off the bed or go down the stairs. We ordered a ramp the other day and it will be here tomorrow so that will give him back a bit of his freedom. The only stairs that we will have to block off are the ones up here. He will still have to be carried but he will have more freedom which I think he will enjoy. Mom is praying that things are healing for him and that we are following the doctors directions carefully but we will find out this week if any of this is getting better for the little guy. I am worried and concerned at what they will tell us but it is something that we have to know. Please help Ozzy, Tyler. Please don't let it be his time to leave Mom. I am just not ready for that yet. He is just 5 1/2 yrs old. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Mom hasn't heard from anyone in a few days. It has been quiet on that end. Meme is helping out a lot lately to help Mom because she knows I can't do a lot right now with always having to keep my eyes glued to Oz. Mark said he was sorry for the argument that we had but honestly there was no emotion in the apology. I told him that and said I would not except it. That may be a bit mean but I know that if you are saying sorry, you need to mean it and not have it just be words and that was exactly what he did. We haven't said much today at all. It is okay though. I think Mom is still needing to process everything that was said and just have more alone time. I am dealing with it and Mom is okay. Don't worry about me!
Little Oz is sleeping in his bed next to me. I feel so bad for him. I question why this had to happen to him or what exactly happened because one minute he was good and the next he wasn't. Was it something that I did and he fell? I keep beating myself up over this whole thing. He doesn't deserve this regardless. He is so young and he deserves to be playing and running around. There is so much going on in this world that everyone is feeling loss of some kind. Businesses are feeling it, retail stores are too. Here, all the theme parks aren't opening for some time now, people are losing their jobs daily and there is nothing out there for them to find a new one, families are losing there loved ones without being able to be by their side, hold their hand and get closure. Instead they are told to stay away, no visits, no nothing and they can't even give them a proper burial. My heart hurts for everyone. I pray for everyone. I pray that it gets better sooner rather than later, I pray that it is safe to be out in public and not have to worry about this virus any more. I pray that there will not be a second wave of this like other countries are experiencing. I guess the second wave is worse than the first. The United States don't need that at all...no one does. Through all this heartache and pain, Mom is trying to stay busy, stay positive. That is the only thing helping me get by.
The little guy is awake and it is time for them to go outside for a walk. He needs a bit of fresh air. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I will light your candle this evening after the calls are done. I will whisper to you before I go to bed as well. Smile when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you my sweet precious son. Remember that you are the wind beneath my wings and you will forever live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later. I miss you so much...more than words. I love you, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤
Saturday, April 25, 2020
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