Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom isn't doing so hot today if I am being completely honest with you and myself for that matter. Yesterday Mark had received an email that said that everyone that works for his employer was to be on a call this morning at 10 am. Mom was stressing about it last night and this morning it was heavy on my mind even though I was saying nothing out loud. Well, Mark had the conference call with everyone and he broke the news to Mom. Just as I though...it was not good news at all. His employers went back on their words that they told everyone 2 weeks ago what would take place if things slowed down due to the Coronavirus and today they told them the complete opposite. It was suppose to be that everyone would have to use they PTO hours/vacation time and then after that it would be unemployment until everything picked back up. Today they were all told that 60 of them would be unemployed for 60 days and could not take their PTO/vacation time, there were a certain amount that were getting let go as of today and they no longer had jobs, and the rest that survived this would take a pay cut between 15-20% until further notice but they still had a job. Everyone was to find out their fate by 3 pm. About 10 minutes after the call, Mark received a call from his boss. Mark was told that he was one of the ones that was less fortunate. He was stunned and shocked and so was Mom. We had just been talking about it before he got the call and he said he thought he would be one of the ones that took a pay cut. He is so upset and rightfully so. This is tough. We dealt with this over 5 years ago and it was hard but we made it through. With everything else going on in the world right now we definitely did not need this on top of it. Mom is going to stay as positive as I can for the both of us and give the space that Mark will need to get through what he needs to. He is a very hard worker, he is extremely intelligent with a skill that not many folks have so Mom is hoping ( he is too) that it won't be long for him to find something that is bigger and better for him. I know you see us being upset and just getting by all day today. Please know that we need you more than anything now. We always need you but today, Mom needs you a lot. I wish you were here so I could talk to you. I could use a Tyler talk. I miss your voice telling me that everything will be okay. I miss the way you could give me a hug and the way you would kiss me on the cheek. I just miss you pumpkin so much. Mom called Aunt Beck and Grandpa to tell them the news. Auntie Kristina knows as well but that is about it. I don't need to broadcast it out there to everyone but I did ask friends to say prayers for us if they would. Mom has gotten a lot of responses so there are a lot of prayers that are going around for us. Mom is blessed for that. I think tonight will be a night for no one doing a lot of talking. Bob has literally been sleeping all day. He has only been up to eat breakfast and slept through lunch. I am sure he is awake now to eat dinner but he will go back to bed right afterwards. Meme hasn't said much at all. She has been doing laundry all day and watching TV. Mark has been in his office and Mom has been in her office. I am trying to give space, even more space now. I think that Mark will probably have a cigar and a drink tonight and will play his video game with his brothers. Mom will be quiet and I will just watch TV before going to bed. The days have been hard since this lockdown and now they are going to be even harder for us all. Again, we will do the best we can. Mom will keep you posted though on things and any progress that happens.
 Today is April 10th. It is Good Friday and also Megan's Birthday. I wished her a good day this morning. She doesn't talk to me anymore really now that Ramon is remarried. I think she has a good relationship with her. It is sad but that is life. I at least acknowledged her on her special day. That is all I can do. She said thank you to me for it and that was that. Sunday is Easter. Not much for celebrating the day that is for sure. We are not having a fancy meal, we can't go anywhere and it will be 92 degrees with 100% humidity so looks like it will be a day to spend outside in the pool and treat it like a normal day on the weekend. Mom will probably made a salad of some sort but that is about it. I am not going through all kinds of everything for Easter. With everything going on like I said.... and now this being added to the mix, I don't want to be around anyone right now. I want my space like Mark does and just be left alone. 
 Mom is still having a hard time with Meme. She just doesn't get it. She keeps going out when she is supposed to be staying home and now she tells me that some guy is coming by the house next week to bring Bob's C-Pap machine to him. I was beyond p*ssed. I told her that was not cool. This guy is around sick people all the time and I don't need him to come here. She told me that the only way for Bob to get it is if someone comes personally. She told me that "we will have to take our chances". I told her no. That is putting us at even more of a risk and she doesn't give a sh*t. I get that Bob needs it but putting our lives at risk for something that he has been dealing with for many years is just not okay at all. I don't know what else to do. Aunt Beck is beside herself at all this too. Tyler, Mom needs your help. I know I am asking a lot from you but I don't know what to do. I am at a loss right now. Please help me. Thank you my sweet precious son.
 It is after 5 pm. Mark is on the phone with his brother and I need to go feed the pups and make dinner for us. Whatever that is as I don't feel like eating at all. Mom will light your candle later and I will whisper to you before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Have fun if you can while I am sleeping tonight. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes.....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤