Friday, April 24, 2020

Dear Tyler, 

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday night? Mom is exhausted and really just upset all day long. I have been up since 4:30 am. I am tired and cranky because Mark seems to think I have to do everything all by myself. I have absolutely no time to do things that I need to do and get done as he feels I am the one entitled to watch Ozzy 24/7. This is going to take the both of us not just Mom. He is doing everything he wants and needs to do during the day and evening and helping just a little bit. We are not talking right now as I am angry at him. It was 7 pm and time to give Ozzy his med. I carried him down and he walked behind me. He didn't put the gate up to the stairs and he started arguing with me and before we knew, Ozzy  went up the stairs. He had the nerve to say it was my fault. I told him I was carrying him and that he was the last one down. I am really upset at that. I would do nothing to hurt him or Princess. I love them very much and that comment was totally uncalled for. I am the one up in the morning and sitting on the floor during the thunderstorms all day long today. He didn't do anything to help me. He was on his phone or computer. I know lack of sleep doesn't help but I will not be the one getting sh*t on. I am doing all that I can to help Oz. I am the one who is extremely worried. 
 The weather has been horrible today. It has been a day with major thunderstorms and heavy rain all day and all tonight. Princess has been shaky all day long and has gotten Oz all upset. It has been a really tough day all around. We had to stay in the bedroom because that was the only way to keep Oz quiet. I felt bad for Meme because she was alone all day long. Bob slept most of the day away and he went to bed around 6 pm. I know she was lonely and bored. Mom felt guilty but there was nothing I could do. I sure hope that tomorrow is a better day all around. The weather is still supposed to be rainy and no sunshine until Monday. I hope that its not like the weather today. We were in a tornado watch until 11 am this morning. That wasn't fun either....ugh! 
 Right now everyone is doing there own thing. Mom is writing to you and keeping an eye on the  little guy. He is sleeping right now. Mark is playing his video game, Meme went to bed and so did Bob. It has been a very boring and long day. It is 8 pm and Mom will be up until 10 pm to give Oz his last set of meds before I try to get some sleep. With these storms I sure hope to get some. We will see. Have fun while it is night time here. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom forgot to light the candle for you tonight. Please forgive me. I will light one for you tomorrow though. I will whisper to you later this evening. Smile when you hear me and I will smile back to you. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom is going to get going because I have to pay attention to Oz. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I promise to be in a better mood. Please continue to watch over us all. Please help us stay healthy and safe. Please also help heal Oz. Thank you, pumpkin. Until tomorrow comes.....good night and sweet dreams. 
 Always,  Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🤍

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