Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Things here as you have seen has not been the greatest of mornings. Many words of anger were exchanged between Mark and I. Things that were said were mean and hateful from him. It isn't anything that I haven't heard before so it didn't surprise me in the least. Was it still hurtful...of course but I have thick skin to it now. I know you heard it all and I know that it must have upset you. Mom is sorry for that. I would never do anything to make you upset. This time I didn't cry any tears though. That is a good thing, right? I don't know what will happen or what will go on but I will keep you in the loop. 
 Right now, Mom is in her office trying to get Ozzy to take a nap. He has been way to active and we can't seem to contain him to slow down. He is breathing funny now. Alot of "panting" and "wheezing" that I have noticed. I am not sure if it is because he is so tired or if it is due to the medications that he is taking but Mom is on top of it and keeping a very close eye on things. You know me when it comes to that. I want Ozzy to be as comfortable as he can. He needs to try and heal and not damage anymore of his spine. We want the little guy with us for many more years. I thought that I would take the time now to write to you as I have very little time at all to do anything these days as I have to watch Ozzy. We will be going downstairs to watch a movie when it is time to give him his 2nd set of medications. That way he can unwind and relax a bit more. Then it will be time for dinner and we will feed them, walk them and then settle in for another movie. The weather is still yuck. Yesterday was the absolute worse of them all. It thunderstormed all day and the rain never stopped. It was very heavy at times. It started at 6 am and went until 1-2 am this morning....nonstop. Today is cloudy and a bit warmer. Everything is trying to dry out. I guess this kind of rain is not usual for Florida but we did need it. Under different circumstances it wouldn't have been a big deal but with Ozzy the way he is, it made it tough. They didn't want to go outside to do their business and Princess wouldn't eat...it was a tough day indeed. Mom got quite frustrated and let it get the best of me. After I calmed down, I felt guilty and awful. I asked God for forgiveness on the way I was acting. I asked for patience and the strength to do all this. I need to be strong to help this little guy heal. I need to get sleep so that I can do everything. Mom is exhausted but I am managing at least 4 hours of sleep. That is better than nothing but I do need more. Ozzy stirs a lot during the night so I am always awke until he settles down. I sleep in weird postions that come morning my body is hating me because I am no longer a 20 year old that can do that...lol. Mom is listening to some soft music so Princess and Ozzy can be more relaxed but I think it is putting me to sleep. After I am done writing I am going to sit in my chair and relax for a bit. I take advantage while the little one is resting. I think that is how I am getting by these last 5 days. Meme is in her room doing something and Bob is taking a nap again. He went to bed last night at 6 pm and woke up at 10:30 am, had something to eat and back in bed again. It is 1:30 pm. Not sure what Mark is doing but if he was smart he would be resting his eyes as well. He is tired. Guess he didn't get much sleep last night either. I can handle it better than him though. I think that is because of all the time I took care of you and was up for 2-3 days with no sleep. Mom is kinda just keeping to herself. Just some alone time for a bit. I need it. I have so much on my mind. I need time to process things. I know you get it and understand conpletely.
 Today is Day 25 of quarantine. It is crazy to think that. Mom has gone out 4 times in the last 5 weeks. That is only to get groceries and that is it. The talk from the Governor is that he is trying to open things back up slowly. I read an article saying that Disney theme parks will not openly up likely again until January 2021. Ugh... Mom understands it but dang that is another 8 months. Small business will open first and then little by little restaurants will open with some strict instructions. Nothing will ever be the same again because of this virus. Too many lost their lives, more are still being diagnosed with it daily, more deaths are occuring daily as well. These are not the best times in the world and Mom just prays daily that things can and will get better for our future. what that looks like is to be seen but Mom still hopes and prays for the best.
 I will light a candle for you later this evening while we are downstairs watching a movie. Mom will whisper to you later this evening as well. I hope that you have a chance to have some fun while I can get some sleep. I know you are near me and with me during all of this. Please continue to watch over us all. Keep us safe, healthy and happy. Thank you my sweet precious son. It means so much to me. Continue to fly high and free. I know you are doing so many wonderful things. Mom is so very proud of you. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night and sweet dreams later this evening. I miss you with all my heart and soul. Every breathe that I take. I love you, Tyler.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxox. Muah ❤