Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday early evening? I hope where you are it is sunny & warm... the complete difference of where I am. Today in Texas it is bitterly cold, wet, rainy, & dark. I never used to like the rain..I always said it messed with my hair..lol! Now as I am older I believe that the rain is good. It washes away all the bad & negative things in this world so that after the rain it is nice & clean again. It might not happen that way but that is the story I believe & I am sticking to it..hahahaha!
 Just went outside to walk Snicks... boy it was pretty bitter. The wind is whipping & the rain is coming down sideways. It is really yucky out there right now. Guess I will not see anything in the sky this evening as I don't believe that the rain will be letting up anytime soon. Doesn't matter to me though. Now don't get me wrong... I love seeing the moon & stars on a crystal clear night, but regardless I will know that you are indeed shining above & watching over Mom & Mark plus our family & friends. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening out for me & hearing Mom's voice. Do you miss me as much as I miss you? Do you miss my smile, laugh, voice? Do you have to miss it at all... if not is it because you can still be with me & see me even though I can't see you? I wonder so many things. Sometimes my mind wonders so much & it drives me crazy because I don't have the answers just now. I know in my time I will & I am ok with that. 
 Here is the daily prayer before I forget. Monday, December 1~ Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your minds, so that you may discern what is the will of God----- what is good & acceptable & perfect. After another night of mindless television, Lord, I lie in bed & try to erase the images & thoughts swirling through my head. Why do we fall into the trap of wasting time this way? When I think of all the wonderful books I haven't read or the time I could have invested in people & in my family instead of actors in sitcoms, I feel ashamed. Renew my mind, Lord. Fill it with thoughts of you, with images of eternal glory, & with your restoring words of Scripture. Watch over me as I sleep, Lord, & let me wake refreshed----with the knowledge that you can & will direct my mind in the ways you would have it go. Wow... so many times I go to sit down to watch tv & say the same thing... mindless stuff is on. Some days I do need the mindless stuff, but most of the time I don't really. It is a routine that we all get into. We think by watching tv it will relax us so that we can unwind from the day. Some may say it works & others would disagree. Everyone has their opinion. I can remember for the longest time I did not have cable tv. I had to come up with ways to be & stay busy. Mark & I would sit by a fire & just talk about our day, play cards, or a board game. We would communicate with one another instead of being absorbed in a show. It brought us closer. Some days we don't put tv on. We call it our non tv nights or our date nights. We do what we want but without the mindless entertainment. I really enjoy those moments. I look forward to them. I think we need to do them more & more. Gives me something to think about....Thank you God for renewing my mind when it comes to this. Please continue to do this. Amen.
 Well, Tyler, the night sky has approached us. It is dark now. I need to get going & make dinner. I hope that you will have a restful night. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are always in my heart, mind, & soul. Never forget this. 
 Until tomorrows letter, Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!