Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday early evening? I hope that today was just as nice for you as it was for me. The weather was so beautiful. It was 70 degrees today & the sky was so blue & not many clouds in the sky. I took Snicks out & we went for a little walk. It was so quiet & peaceful around here today. I actually got a few things done today so I felt productive. First time in a long time...lol!
 Bob went for his doctor's appointment & it wasn't the greatest news. I was hoping that things would go well & they would have good news. They did however get more answers to what has been going on with Bob & his heart today.. more than what they have been given in the last 2 1/2 years. We are all still praying for the best for him & for a miracle to happen. My fingers & toes will be crossed for him. I won't give up & I hope that Meme & Bob don't either. I know you are doing all that you can from where you are & we all thank you, Tyler! It means a lot to us all.
 So last night when I was looking at facebook I read something that made Mom sad. My friend lost her brother yesterday. I went to school with her & her brother was a few years older. You know her brother, Tyler. He was 1 of your RT at DHMC many of nights. It was Craig. I wonder if you have seen him? It will be a reunion for y'all when it comes to Jim, Frank, you & now Craig. If & when you see him please tell him hello for me. Craig was a wonderful & caring man. He will be truly missed by his family & friends. 
 I have a couple daily prayers to write as I missed yesterday. So let me start typing them out to you now. December 11~ Be patient, therefore, beloved, until the coming of the Lord. O God, though you are silent today, I believe you will answer my prayers for guidance & help. I'm sure that you have heard my pleas, & you know what my heart desires, but more than that, you know what is best for me. I am willing to wait until I hear your voice & until your meaning is clear to me. I will have patience, for I have faith that all things happen according to your plan. We must believe that the Lord knows what is truly best for us. I truly believe that you, God, are answering my prayers for things that have been troubling Mark & I for some time now. Doors are opening for us & we couldn't be happier. I was getting frustrated for the last couple of weeks not knowing what was going to happen or what we were going to do about certain things. I was making myself sick with the not knowing & today after a couple phone calls some doors are opened & there is hope. Like this prayer says... everything happens at the right time according to your plan. Things happen when they are suppose to & all things happen for a reason! Thank you God for helping us through this tough time. I will continue to give you my worries, my stress from here on. I will continue to pray that all goes well for us & our prayers continue to get answered. Thank you. Amen!
 December 12~ Let us love, not in word or speech, but in truth & action. Lord, only you can love unconditionally. Try as we might, we fall into loving based on performance or loving based on being loved in return. Why do we make love a competition or an equation? Your love for us is unqualified, completely accessible, & eternal. Dwell in our hearts & minds Lord, & direct our actions toward others. Help us move ever closer to the unconditional way of loving that can change the world one heart at a time. God can be the only one to love unconditionally.. I have no doubt in my mind on this, but I would like to believe that I loved you unconditionally, Tyler. You were my only child, my only son. I loved you the minute I laid eyes on you the day you were born. I was very young then & through the years I made so many mistakes but I believe I did all that I could do for you, for us. I never wanted anything in return except for you to love me & you did just that. So many people use the term unconditionally when they talk about the love we had for one another. It makes me smile. I would do it all over again if I was given the chance. I would go through this world & life with you again if I could. I wouldn't even hesitate. I hope you know that. I miss you so much & I love you beyond anything I could ever express. You were my world & you always will be.
 The dark evening sky is upon us. I hope that I see the stars & moon later when I walk Snicks. If I do I will give the biggest smile & if not I will still smile knowing you are somewhere smiling back at me. I will whisper to you as I always do. I hope you have a wonderful evening. May you have the sweetest dreams. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!