Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? I hope that you are happy as can be & you are doing all that you want to & need to. Mom is doing ok. I think both Mark & Mom are still recovering from all the wedding planning & we are still exhausted from it. I am sorry that I haven't written in a few nights but you know 1st hand how busy we were. The wedding went really well. Everyone that attended said that it was beautiful & so nice. I think Mom's vision for the wedding was right what I wanted it to be. The lights were wonderful & romantic. I was very happy with the outcome. Did you & Amy see the memorial candles for you two? They were lit before the ceremony & blown out at the end. I found a poem that we framed too. I believe the sign that you gave me was the beautiful weather. It was a great temp for being the end of December. The sun was shining & it was just amazing. It was like you were shining down on us all. Thank you pumpkin!
 We are still in NH for a few more days to see family & friends. We will be back on the road soon. The truck got fixed earlier today. It was an easier fix than expected so that was such a nice surprise. Tomorrow I will be with Grandpa as Debbie is having major surgery. I know you will be watching over her during this time. I am so glad that I can be with them both instead of being in Texas & so far away. Meme & Bob are doing well too. Bob goes back to the doctors next week to see when he has his surgery. I hope to up here with Meme when that takes place as well. The rest of the family & our friends are doing well. I think we are all looking forward to a new year & a fresh start again. It will be 2015 in 3 days. I can't believe it. It is so weird. This year really went by so fast. I can't believe that in 6 moths it will be your 2 year anniversary. Makes me sad to just think about it so I won't right now.
 The moon has been shining brightly the last few nights. It has been beautiful. Thank you for this. I haven't seen the stars shining though but that is ok. I know you are shining brightly wherever you may be! I have a few daily prayers to write to you so I would like to start them right now. 
 December 26~ Can any idols of the nations bring rain? Or can the heavens give showers? Is it not you, O Lord our God? We set our hope on you, for it is you who do all this. I gave up hope, dear God, & then you came to me. I gave up faith, dear God, & you whispered in my ear that all was not lost. I gave up love, dear God, & you washed over me with a wave of the love that knows no bounds. I gave up peace, dear God, & you filled me with a peace that goes beyond understanding. Thank you for keeping hope alive in my heart & my soul. Dear God, with hope restored, my faith & love & peace are sure to follow. Hope is the gentle urging of the soul when the mind, heart, & body are too tired to go on. 
 December 27~ Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you. My Lord, you instructed us to forgive our enemies, but I need a little extra courage to do that today.I want to hold on to my anger like a weapon, but in my heart I know that I am just hurting myself by doing so. I pray for some strength & fortitude to face my responsibilities for what happened & to accept what others did in kind. I pray to forgive those who have betrayed me, even as I ask them to forgive me for my role in this situation. Help me, Lord, to forgive them. Amen.
 December 28~ Do to others as you would have them do to you. Those times when I most need some loving kindness, God, are when I most need to give someone else that same kindness. For there is one lesson I have learned, & that is to give is to receive. What we put forward comes back to us in the end. Today, I will set aside my problems & reach out to someone who has bigger challenges to face, knowing that even as I help that person, I am helping myself. I will spread love & openly receive love with a willing & grateful heart. The language of an open & loving heart is often heard in the quietest, most simple of gestures. I believe that I do this on a regular basis & daily. That is just the type of person I am. I have definitely done this in my past for many people. Thank you Lord for giving me the means to help others. Please continue to do this for me & I will continue to help. Thank you. Amen.
 December 29~ A friend loves at all times. Father in heaven, how glad I am that you put so many precious friends in my life over the years. When I look back through time I can still see their faces & remember their encouragement & love, even if time & distance have separated us. Never let me take my friends for granted, Lord. I praise & thank you for the ones I've known & the ones I've yet to meet. Friendship is one of your greatest gifts, & I'm truly glad you thought of it. I have had many friends in my life that have come & gone through the years. They have been in my life for a reason that was needed & left when they have served the purpose. I will never forget their faces. Through the good times & the bad I know who my true friends are.. the ones who have stuck by me through it all. I love & cherish them with all my heart. They are not just my friends they are my extended family. Thank you Lord for all the ones that I have in my life & the ones I have yet to meet.
 I am looking forward to my walk this evening to see if I will see the stars & the moon in the sky. I hope I get to! I hear the weather is going to get colder this week. Not sure if I am ready for that or not & snow is suppose to be coming on Saturday. I know that the sky will be clear until then. Regardless I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be waiting to hear my voice. I miss you so much, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my everything. 
 I hope that you have a wonderful night. May you have peace & rest. Sweet dreams ny precious son. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!