Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing today on this Friday evening? Mom is doing ok. I am so sorry that I did not write you a letter yesterday. I was busy during the day, & later that evening I was not feeling so well. The time escaped me & I went to bed. Today has been another busy day for me. I have been crunching numbers, dotting i's & crossing all the t's to make sure everything is set for the wedding & our travel to NH. I just want to make sure everything is set. Guess it is the OCD in Mom. Hopefully I can take it easy over the weekend & relax a bit. I can't believe we start the journey to NH in 13 days! Please be with us during all that time... going to NH, being in NH. & coming back to TX. I know you will be with us & I thank you for it. I miss you so much. I wish I could give you a hug. I love you!
 Momma is kind of sad tonight. I went on facebook tonight to see what was up & I saw that a friend of mine posted an obituary of another friend of ours that passed away on Wednesday. Didn't say what happened, but he was 44 years old. He leaves behind his wife that went to school with Mom & their son Jack. Always makes me stop to think just really how life is so short & precious. I sent some prayers up to him & that he rests in peace plus to his family & friends. 
 I have a couple of daily prayers to type out seeings how I missed yesterday so I will get to them right now. December 4~ Truly I tell you, just as you did it to one of the least of these who are members of my family, you did it to me. God, thank you for the ability to serve others & fulfill their needs. Whether I'm lending a hand, sharing a kind word, or providing a meal, when I help another person & see gratitude in their eyes. I know I am doing your work here on earth. Please help me recognize all the opportunities I have to serve so that I can give back a small fraction of the many blessings you have given me. Through the years I have helped so many family & friends out without asking for anything in return. That is the way it should be. I am so thankful that at the time I had the means to help them all out. I didn't have much but I had love & friendship to give. Thank you God for all those times when my family & friends needed help. I am so happy & glad that I could give them hope & a little bit of sunshine to their lives. 
 December 5~ At that time I will bring you home, at that time when I gather you; for I will make you renowned & praised among all the peoples of the earth, when I restore your fortunes before your eyes, says the Lord. When all hope is lost, or so it seems in my heart, you, dear Lord, remind me to never give up & never give in. Like a candle that burns eternally, you relight the flame of hope within, & I feel a new sense of power & certainty that all things can be overcome. To know that I always have hope is to know that life can always get better, sometimes even in the blink of an eye, if I just surrender to your will & hold on tight. Thank you, Lord, for the everlasting hope that fills my heart. People of hope ascend hills & mountains others have declared impossible. I have always been an emotional person. I have always said that I will never give up on anything & I never have. I never will. I pull my strength from family & friends along with the Lord. I have been given hope several times in my life & I would hope that I have given others the same. Thank you God for all the strength you give me to go on daily. Thank you for all the blessings I have. Amen.
 Those 2 prayers really brought me back to the times that I have helped others through the years. It made me feel good to go back & remember them all. During some difficult times in Mom's life I pulled my strength from you Tyler. You helped me through so much. I don't know if you realized that but you do now. Thank you for those times. Thank you for the times now. I miss you terribly. I love you so much it hurts.
 The night sky has fallen & it was pretty cloudy today. Getting ready for the next 3 days of rain here. I don;t think I will see anything in the sky except the clouds but I will still look. I will still whisper to you as I always do. I hope you have a wonderful night. May you have sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Please watch over us all. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!