Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday night? I hope that you are the happiest young man that you possibly can be. Mom has had a very hectic day today. Lots of time on the telephone trying to locate documents for the wedding. That was 4 hours long & a headache to me. I finally got what I needed though so it was worth it in the end. I am pretty tired & I am having a hard time keeping my eyes open but I wanted to write to you so I kept the daily letter up. I don't want to miss one day because I feel so close to you & happy when I do it. I think that some letters will be short & some will be long but I know either way you will be happy because I know that you watch me when I type them & you are with me. That makes me so happy. I was watching a show last night & there was something that a girl had said that hit home for me but made me smile. She was speaking about her Dad that had passed & that it was his anniversary coming up....she stated that she dreams about him all the time. She said it didn't make her sad at all. It made her happy because every time she dreams of him they are together & it is like he never left her at all. I have to admit I did shed some tears when she spoke, but I know what she meant because I feel the same way when I see you in my dreams. It is like you are with me & never left. It makes me happy. Please continue to come to me in my dreams. I love seeing you. I miss you so much so any way I can see you is wonderful. You are my everything, Tyler.
 Like I said a few minutes ago... Mom is very tired tonight so I would like to do the daily prayer right now. December 3~ Pay attention to what you hear; the measure you give will be the measure you get, & still more will be given you. Holy God, when I am depressed & down, it is hard to see the good in my life. I am so focused on the bad that I can't see beyond my troubles. Instead, help me shift my eyes to focus on the good things & to see the world as half full rather than half empty. Lift my heart from the pit of gloom & show me the light again that I may recognize just how much you have blessed me & continue to bless me each day. Amen. It is really hard to see things in a positive way when things around you are going so badly. I used to think that I had a black cloud over my head for many years because every thing that happened was awful. As I am older now, I see that every negative thing that has happened in my life was to put me & shape me to where I needed to be in my future. I have said it so many times before & I will continue. All that has happened to me in a bad way or negative way has made me who I am today. I have learned so many things & I know that I have so much more to learn. I will do this every day. I look forward to it. It makes me stronger. I am a different person since I lost you. It is the hardest thing to go through every day, but I living, I am trying, & I will succeed at this. I promise you that! I will make you proud, Tyler. Thank you God for showing me so many new & different things in my life. Answers to questions that I have now received. I know that I will have a fulfilling rest of my life because of the changes I have made & the blessings that I get from you. Thank you for everything. 
 I am going to close my letter to you for tonight. I need to relax for a bit so that I can sleep tonight. Please watch over me, Mark & our family & friends. Thank you for all you do. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. I will look to the sky tonight to see if I see the moon & stars. Regardless, I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening for Mom's voice!