Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today on this Tuesday afternoon? Today is sunny & blue skies but the temps are still pretty cold here for the last day of March. Tomorrow is one of your favorite days as you were such a joker... it is April Fools Day! I am sure you will be pranking so many of us!
 Everything is a little better here. We all actually got so sleep last night. I hope that it keeps getting better for us. Ozzy slept for about 3 hours at a time & then cried for a bit & then fell asleep again. He is having a tough time as he is teething. He wants to chew everything under the sun. He is giving Mom a run for her money. I have hardly any spare time right now so when I get a chance during the day when the pups are both sleeping I will be writing to you! That way I am sure to get my letter out to you. The nights around here get busy as the dogs need feeding & a walk plus I seem to be always picking up pee on the puppy pads..huh. It never ends..lol! By 9 pm Mom is just so tired & ready to go to bed. I know you are helping Mom out every way that you can & I thank you so much. Mark seems to think you are having fun enjoying watching us run around like crazy & just laughing your head off at us chasing both Princess & Ozzy. I think Mark is right. I can hear you laughing = ]
 Not much else is going on with us or the family. Mark is sick today. I think the lack of sleep has worn him down. I hope that he is feeling better tomorrow. I don't want him being sick for the holiday. We are still waiting for our things. This company is giving us the run around. It is ridiculous. They say 1 thing 1 day & then make excuses the next day. I am thinking at this point we will never receive our things. It has been 4 months since we have seen this stuff. I am getting impatient that is for sure. We waited 1 1/2 years for our stuff to arrive in Texas. Again it will be like Christmas when we get it! I hope we don't have to move long distance again for awhile. I don't think that I could handle it. 3 major moves in 3 years has been enough for Mom & Mark. 
 I am hoping that the moon & stars will be shining through tonight for Mom & all of us to see. I can't wait for the warmer weather so that I will see them mostly ever night. I always whisper to you no matter what. I hope that you hear Mom chatting with you. I look forward to walking during the night like we did in Texas. Gosh I miss those times. I miss Max & Snickers & I sure miss you. I hope that the boys are behaving for you & they are doing well. I think that it is wonderful that you get to play with them now. I hope that you give them hugs & kisses from us. Make sure to take care of them pumpkin! 
 I hope your night is everything you want it to be. I hope that you have many sweet dreams & I get to see them in my own tonight as I hopefully get more rest! Please know that you are missed & loved so much by so many family & friends but not as much as Mom misses & loves you. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Sorry I didn't have any quotes for you this time. I will make it up to you in tomorrows letter. The pups are stirring so I must go. Wish me luck.. I need it..lol. Love you my sweet precious son!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Monday evening? I hope that all is well wherever you are & whatever you may be doing. Mom is completely exhausted. As you have been able to see the last 48 hours have been pure hell for Mom & Mark. We finally got the little guy Ozzy on Saturday evening. That was so not fun at all. He was actually pretty good when we got home but when sleepy time hit it was terrible. He cried & cried all night so Mark finally got up & took him to the living room so that Princess could sleep. Yesterday they were both as good as to be expected but again night time was awful. He cried & cried again every 10 minutes. We finally put him in the bed with us. He slept on & off again but not much. The last 48 hours I have only got like 4 hours of sleep. Mark has gotten a little more but not much. I am so sorry that I haven't written to you but that is why. I tell ya I didn't know what we were getting into with having 2 pups again. Sometimes it is fun but most of the time it is quite tough. It is really worse than having a new born. At least they sleep for a few hours at a time. I can't wait to watch Ozzy grow up but I wish it would get here now...lol! 
 This weekend is Easter. We are planning on going to see our family up North. I sure wish once again that we were able to see you. This is our 2nd Easter apart & I can't stand it. I miss you so much. Holidays are just not the same for us. I miss buying you all kinds of candy & trinkets for your basket. I miss seeing your face when you saw your loot! Remember when we did the egg hunt for you? That is the year you got your 1st computer. You were so happy. I think you were 5 years old. The memories I have with you are incredible. I just wished I had so many more but I am so thankful everyday for the ones we did have together! I can't wait to see Grandpa, Debbie, Meme, Bob, Great Grammy & a few others this weekend. I haven't seen most of them since December. Been way to long. I miss them too. I hope that you come to visit us so that we can share the day with you too in the way that you can now. I look forward to your signs when I get them. It makes me feel so close to you. Just like I do when I write to you.
 Have a couple things for you today. I hope that you go & visit your cousin Elizabeth. It is her 17th Birthday. I can't believe how old y'all have gotten. I remember when Auntie Ann had her. Your Dad & I were not together at the time but I always saw pictures. She has become a beautiful young lady. She looks a little like Uncle Ray & Auntie Ann. Second, I wanted to tell you that Ryan Nass...your buddy is in the ICU in Cheshire Medical Center in Keene. He was admitted last night for vomiting blood. They did some testing on him today & found some old ulcers & a tear in the stomach but those were all old injuries. They are not sure what is going on right now. I have said some prayers for him & I know that you will be with him too. I hope that he is fine & gets discharged soon. Lastly, I wanted to let you know that we still need your magic with these pups please. Help Ozzy sleep through the night so we can get rest & help Princess with her anxiety so she won't be so jumpy around him & us. Thanks Tyler. It is very much appreciated. 
 Today was a crappy day as it snow again. It was cloudy the rest of the day so I know we wouldn't see the moon & the stars tonight but I know as always you are shining brightly no matter where you are. I did see the stars & moon yesterday. I whispered to you, did you hear Mom? I hope so. I will whisper to you tonight as well so be listening out for my voice. I love you with all my heart & soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will forever be in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. 
 Oh yeah.. to of Mom's favorite quotes: " Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away! "  We had that quote in our place in Texas. I would always read it as we walked up the stairs to the apartment. I would always think of all the moments that we had together & how much they made me happy! 
 The 2nd quote is " Life is a story only you hold the pen. " Had this one in the Texas place too. It is so true. Life is exactly what you make of it. 
 Hope you like these as much as I do! Sweet dreams tonight to you. I hope to get some sleep & see you in my own. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? I hope that you are well & smiling that amazing smile that I miss so much. Mom is doing as well as I can be! The weather is cool, cloudy & rainy. Sometimes that plays on my mood a bit. I used to hate the rain but now I really embrace it as I believe it rains to wash away the negative things in our lives & in this world & replaces it with the positive. 
 I am so sorry that I didn't do my letter to you last night. I started one during the afternoon & then my computer needed charging, I started to make dinner & said I would finish it later & after everything was done I was not feeling so hot so I laid on the couch & watched tv & then went to bed at 9:30pm. I guess I was pretty tired. I woke up once during the night & then not again until 6:30am. I know you are with me all the time so I know you see everything I do & how I feel. 
 Today is a pretty exciting day for us here. Today is the day that we are getting the little guy Ozzy! As I type this is he is on his way to Miami,Florida for a couple hours & he will be landing near us around 4pm. I can't wait to see him. He is tiny. I was told he was no heavier than 4lbs & no longer than 8". He is rust color & a smooth doxie like Snicks was. I know that later on you will be here to see him & I can hear your voice saying that " oh they are so cute " & then you would laugh your little laugh. Gosh, I miss that so much. We both shared the love for animals. We would always say we wanted them all... well most animals..no reptiles for Mom though even though you liked them! 
 Everything else is going better here. A big improvement since last weekend that is for sure. Getting things done & our belongings should be arriving to us by the end of this weekend after a 3 week battle with the company to get them..ugh! Princess is doing better too. She is still puppy training but it is getting better. She has masted the stairs so that is wonderful. She is going potty on a puppy pad instead of the carpet which is just an easy clean up for Mom. Hopefully when the weather gets warmer she will be going potty outside. I am crossing my fingers that she will get along with Ozzy. I hope she embraces him & not ignores him or is scared or mean to him. We really have fallen in love with her & do not want to take her back to where we got her from. We need your magic, Tyler! I know you will help out as much as you can. I love you & appreciate whatever you can do to help. Thank you.
 Here are a couple sayings & quotes that I found for you today. " There are as many perspectives, versions, & changeability to each of our stories as there are drops in a wave. While our stories unfold, their form & meaning depend entirely on what perspective we choose. " 
 " Our children are only lent to us, We never know just how long we will be able to keep them for. So kiss them, cuddle them, praise them, & hold them tightly, But most of all tell them you love them everyday. "
 " Mothers hold their children's hands for a short while, but their hearts forever. "
 I would like to believe that I was the best Mom that I could be to you, Tyler. I hope that I made you proud. I know you made Mom proud & it was an honor that you chose me for your Mom. You are still my everything, the love of my life & my true hero! I hope you never forget this!
 Well, I have a feeling that tonight I will not be seeing the stars & moon shining brightly as it is still raining outside. Doesn't matter to Mom though because I know you are up there somewhere shining the brightest you can. I just saw that tomorrow there is a 70% chance of snow...ugh! This madness just has to stop...lol. Winter needs to go away so I can get the warm weather back that I miss. I hope that it is always warm where you are. I miss you so much & I love you beyond words can express. I hope that your evening will be eventful, restful, & peaceful. May it be what you want it to be always. I hope you have sweet dreams if you do indeed sleep. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight my sweet precious son. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? I hope that you are in a warm place with the sun shining down on your face & you are smiling away. Mom is doing ok today. I have been up since early this morning & I am getting sleepy but I will be staying awake until Mark gets home from work. He had to work super late tonight so he won't be home until 10pm or even later. Makes a long day being alone & an even longer day for Mark where he has been working & commuting. Guess we both will be sleeping pretty good tonight...lol!
 Princess has been a good girl for Mom today. She has gone potty on the puppy pad again & she has been going up the stairs like a pro. She still won't go down the stairs but that is ok. She is getting there. She is starting to get comfortable with us & her surroundings. I think in another couple weeks she will be completely trained & a very happy girl with happy parents. I know you are working your magic & I really appreciate it & I still need it & your help. Thank you pumpkin. I know you can see Princess & I know you think she is adorable. I know you will love Ozzy too when we get him in a couple days! I can't wait to meet the little guy. Princess is scared of other dogs big or small so I am hoping that she will warm up to the pup & like him. Time will tell & we shall see! I know you will make it happen. I know you will help us all out  = ]
 So today I got in touch with Aunt Ann & spoke to her about what she did to become a medical transcriptionist. I thought about it years ago when I used to stay up & care for you. It is a 4 month course & then you get certified. It is not a lot of money but it will give Mom something to do & some money in my pocket. I feel that this is a great choice because I can use my knowledge of what I know in the medical field. I have 20+ years of medical terminology so I think I could do well in this field. I think you would encourage Mom to go for it & you would be happy for me. I am thinking of starting it in the next month. 1st I want to get your stone & bench paid off & ordered so it will finally be in your resting place. That is the most important thing for Mom right now. I think you will smile & be happy with what I came up with & chose for you. It was a tough thing for Mom to do as it was just another thing to remind me that this is really real & you really aren't coming back. I miss you so much. I know I say this all the time but it is so very true. I miss you face, your smile, your voice, your laugh, your jokes, our talks, our fights & everything else. I love you unconditionally still & I always will. No words can ever express the love I have for you my sweet precious son. You were & still are my everything. You had my heart for 22 years & you took my heart the day you left the physical world. You will always be the only one who has Mom's heart & I know you know that. 
 I have a couple quotes for you so let me write them out to you right now. " Time is like a river.... You cannot touch the same waters twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE! "
 " Each day means a new twenty-four hours. Each day means everything is possible again. "
 Hope you like those because Mom sure does. Well the evening sky is upon us once again. The sky was clear today but the clouds have rolled in just as it said they would. It is suppose to rain the next couple of days but the temps are suppose to be in the high 50's! Super happy about that! I am not sure if I will see the stars & moon but that is ok. I know you are shining bright no matter where you may be. The moon & stars were beautiful last night. I whispered to you as I always do. I will do the same tonight so hope you hear Mom. I don't really know what you do during the day or the night, if there is a difference where you are or it is always day time & sunny. Again, no matter what I will always tell you to have sweet dreams because I always did when I tucked you in at night. I hope to see you in my own dreams tonight. Please continue to watch over Mom, Mark, & our family & friends. Thank you. I love you. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? I hope that all is well with you wherever you are at this moment in time. Mom is doing ok. I have been up fairly early & I am tired but mostly I am pissed off. I just got off the phone with Aunt Becky & she could hear it in my voice. She told me that I have so much anger inside me that it is eating me alive.. it is poisoning me & I need to do something about it. I know she is correct. I feel exactly the way she was telling me that she could hear & feel. I just don't know what to do. I have very little resources to choose from & it always seems like I have excuses on why I am not doing something but that is not the case at all. I feel my hands are tied. I have no car to go anywhere & even if I did I really have no where to go. I have been living this life style for 3 years now that I don't know how to even get out of my own way. I am not around very many people anymore & I find myself not wanting to be around anyone. I have nothing to say or any conversation to engage in. This is so not Mom. This is really hard for me as I used to be such a people person. I was working in retail & being around people all the time. Now I am such a loner & I really dislike that. 
 Princess just laid on the computer & typed you a bunch of zzzzzzzz's. It was cute. I should have just kept it. I think you would have laughed about it just as I did. She was a good girl today. She went potty outside & on the pee pad. I was very happy about that. It was such a nice change! If you are working your magic then please continue. I really need all the help I can get! I am not sure if you have been listening to Mom then you will be knowing that at the end of the week we will be getting another addition. This little guy is 10 weeks old & he is a rust color & smooth hair like Snicks was. His name right now is Charmer but we are going to change it to Ozzy. I can't wait to meet him & see his little face. I hope that Princess gets along with him or there is going to be some hard choices to make. I need more of your magic, Tyler! Thanks pumpkin! 
 The stars & moon were so bright & beautiful last night. It made me smile. I whispered to you..did you hear Mom? I wish it was warmer because I would have stayed out longer & gone for a walk but the wind was just so awful. It went right through me & after 5 minutes I was so cold. So tired of this weather. This week there is a day that will be 60 degrees but with rain. I just can't wait for the summer days. Maybe that will help Mom out. I think that I should see the stars & moon again tonight as the sky is so clear today. I will whisper to you again so be listening. 
 I hope that you have a wonderful afternoon & evening. May it be peaceful & restful. I hope that you have sweet dreams. I hope I see you in my own dreams tonight. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS  Here is your quote for today~  When you keep God first place, His blessings will chase you down. We've all had disappointments in the past, but don't get stuck in a defeated mindset, Stay in faith, God has good things coming your way. 

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing? Well, today is Monday for sure. The weather was sunny but so bitter cold & the wind was whipping so bad that it numbed & stung my face when I went outside. Mom is so sorry that I couldn't write to you last night but it really wasn't a good day or night at all. I need not go into details because I know you were with Mom & you witnessed it & saw it all. I was so stunned emotionally, mentally, & physically that I couldn't even think straight. I was outside trying to clear my head for a couple hours & then came inside. I kinda just sat on the couch for a bit & then made dinner. I ate & vegged out for a couple hours. I zoned out as I don't really remember focusing on the tv & then I went to bed. I awoke not rested & still hurt & sad. I did a lot of thinking today & came to many conclusions. I am not one to give up, I give it my all & I will continue to do that. I will hold my head high as I always do. You know Mom. I will give it 100% until I can't anymore. Please be with me though. I really need you close by, Tyler. I wish I could just come see you, skype with you, or anything. I need you. I miss you. I love you more than you will ever know or maybe you do know now. Maybe you can feel it. I would love to hear your voice again. I could use to hear your jokes to help me crack a smile. 
 I know that the evening sky will be upon us very soon.... exactly in 30 minutes. The sky is quite clear so when I go outside to walk the pup I will be looking to see the stars & moon shining brightly. I will whisper to you so I hope you will be waiting to hear Mom. I hope that I make you smile. Oh what I wouldn't give to see that if I do. 
 Our family seems to be doing well. Debbie got a job & seems to like it. Grandpa is good to. Working less hours now which makes me happy. He needs to relax & enjoy things he likes instead of busting his butt. Meme is good. I hope to hear that she is retiring soon so she can enjoy life too. Bob went to the doctors & had some changes made so I hope that things will start looking up for him. Aunt Becky is good. John is still healing & Brandy is doing good too. She is studying & going to get her pharmacy tech license. I am so proud of her. She takes the test in May! Mark & Mom are doing ok. Things are crazy with his schedule for work but we are working through that. We are still awaiting our belongings from Texas. Hopefully this week we will be getting them. The pup is still giving us a very hard time. She still will not go potty outside at all. I am so frustrated & don't know what to do. It upsets me. I have trained pups before but she is 8 years old. We are happy that we rescued her but enough is enough. Please help us, Tyler! Help her to start going potty outside. Thanks pumpkin. 
 I found a few quotes and/or sayings for today... here they are... " Grief is the last act of love we have to give to those we loved. Where there is deep grief, there was great love. " One of Mom's friends sent this to me. It made me sad at 1st but then smile because I loved you so much. Such unconditional love between the 2 of us. 
 " There are moments in life when you wish you could bring someone down from heaven. To spend the day with them just 1 more time, give them 1 more hug, kiss them goodbye or hear their voice again. 1 more chance to say I love you!  I think of this always but I would want to be greedy. I wouldn't want just 1 more....
 The night sky is here. I will be looking for the bright stars so be listening soon. I miss you so much. I love you beyond any words. I hope you have a wonderful night doing what you do. If you rest I hope you have sweet dreams. I hope you will be in Mom's tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. I wanted to let you know that Mom is not feeling all that great right now. I will write to you tomorrow night. I am going to lay down on the couch & hope that I get some sleep tonight. I hope that you had a great day doing all that you needed & wanted to do. The weather here was pretty crappy so I doubt I will see anything shining in the sky tonight. Did you get to see the total eclipse of the moon/sun last night? I saw pictures & it looked amazing. So pretty. Hope you got to see it 1st hand. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for Mom. I miss you so much & I love you beyond anything I can or could ever express. 
 Have a great night, Tyler. May you have sweet dreams & may I see you in my own tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. Watch over Mom, Mark, & the rest of our family & friends. Thanks pumpkin. It means a lot to Mom & us all.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is having a tough day today. 21 months ago you left the physical world to go be with God to have eternal life. I have my good days & bad days but most are bad. I try so hard so that you can see me smile & laugh & enjoying life, but most of the time I just can't. When you left this world you took a piece of Mom, a piece of my heart that I will never get back. I am sorry, Tyler. It is just the way it is for Mom. You must know that I am not mad at you & never have been. You endured so much here in this world. You were so strong & overcame so many things even doctors didn't think was possible. You showed so many family, friends, & even strangers what it was like to be an inspiration to live your life to the fullest even with the cards that you were dealt with. You showed so much strength & love to all who loved you, who you loved, & to those you didn't even know. You were a Hero to Mom & to everyone. I am such a proud Momma. I talk about you all the time to so many people. I am proud of you. I always have been & I always will. I also want you to know that Mom is happy that you are no longer in pain. That you don't have to worry about your vent, your wounds, your chair, & so many more things. You can finally be freed of all your limitations that held you back here. I can't wait for the day that I get to see it again. You got sick at the age of 3 years old. I can't wait to see you walk again & I can't wait until I can get a hug again from my sweet precious son! That day will be filled with tears of joy only & something that I will cherish for my eternity. 
 Today is the 1st day of Spring. Winter is supposed to be behind us but I guess Mother Nature has other plans for us. It is bleak outside, cloudy with gray skies & anytime now we will be getting snow, sleet, & freezing rain. This will go on for all the weekend. Like everyone else, I am done with winter & I just want the sun shining all the time & for it to be warm again. I look forward to those days ahead. The sunrise this morning was amazing. It was orange with pinks & purples. Just breathtaking. I took some pictures of it. I hope you got to see it too. I am sure if you did you had a fabulous view! 
 Oh yeah, on a good note we will be receiving our belongings from Texas either Sunday or Monday. It will be great to see our stuff again after 3 long months. I can't wait to get pictures on the wall & get our apartment here all set up. I am happy & excited about this.
 Princess is doing good. I think she is starting to get used to her new place & her new surroundings. She is still not doing all that well with the potty training but I have hope that in time she will. I walked her earlier & she surprised me when she pooped outside! I was so excited! I think we are on the right start that we need! Now we... well she needs to master the peeing part & all will be well. I am keeping my fingers crossed. I know that you are helping as much as you can too. Thanks pumpkin!
 So today I am going to start the quotes or phrases that I want to write to you daily. Some may be longer than others so I will only do 1 & others will be short & I will do 2 or 3. These will be all positive sayings as I don't want any negative things in your letters or anymore in my life that I already have. I hope you enjoy them as much as Mom does. Here is the 1st one: " Prayer is not a " spare wheel " that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a " steering wheel " that directs the right path throughout life. " 
 " The more you use the power within you, the more you will draw it to you. You will reach a point where you won't need to practice anymore, because you will BE the power, you will BE the perfection, you will BE the wisdom, you will BE the intelligence, you will BE the love, you will BE the joy. 
 I don't know if I will see the stars & moon tonight in the sky. I am thinking probably not as the weather is going to get crappy really soon. I will however know in my heart that no matter where you are or what you have to do or want to be doing you are shining your brightest. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you can hear Mom. I love you with all my heart. No words can ever express how much that is or how much I truly miss you. Sweet dreams tonight & hope to see you in mine. You will forever be in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin. How are you doing today? Mom is feeling a little better than yesterday. I actually got some sleep last night & got some more this morning. Princess was really quiet too & slept so that made it very easy for Mom. I just wish she would just go potty outside for us. If & when that happens she will be a really good girl & a sweet pup. I know that you would really like her, Tyler. You would think she is such a cutie. I can hear you now. You would be so proud of Mom & Mark for rescuing her from a puppy mill. 
 The weather here was sunny & really cold. The wind again was just whipping out there. It stings your face & it hurts. Tomorrow is the 1st day of Spring & we are suppose to be getting snow, sleet, & freezing rain all weekend...go figure, huh? Got to love being back in New England...NOT!!!! Easter is coming up in a couple weeks. Makes me happy that I will see our family & friends but sad that this is the 2nd one without you. I really have a very hard time with the holidays now. I try  & people believe me but inside I am crushed & I am happy when they are over. It is just not the same anymore. 
 Today we received a card from the VCA Hospital. It was so sweet of them to send a symphony card for losing Snickers. When I read it I cried. It hurt & brought me back to last week. It is still hard. I miss my buddy so much. I miss Max too. I miss you the most though. Tomorrow will be 21 months since you left & received your wings. These days are the toughest for Mom. I still replay the 18th - the 20th of every month over & over in my head. It crushes me more & more. It sucks. It hurts Mom. I whispered to you earlier, did you hear Mom? I spoke to you when I saw the time 12:12pm. That time will always hold a very special meaning to Mom & you know why. I love you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Always remember that.
 I have a few quotes that I found from Pastors that I think I will start to write to you on my letters to you for a bit. This will replace the daily prayers that I used to do. I will start these tomorrow. It just seems fitting for Mom. I think you will like them & I will enjoy writing them to you. Some may be short so I will do a couple but if they are longer than there will be just 1 a day.
 The sky should be clear tonight so I will be looking for those stars & the moon shining brightly. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be hearing Mom's voice when I chat with you. I am not sure if you sleep at all anymore but if you do I hope you have many sweet dreams tonight. I hope that when I fall asleep tonight I will get to see you in my dreams my sweet precious son. You will be forever in my heart, mind, & soul. 
 All my love, Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today? I hope you are wonderful. Mom is doing ok. Still having a tough time with so many things. I am not feeling the greatest but I wanted to write to you even if it is a short letter today. I am just extremely tired today. I am not getting much rest. I hope to go to bed early tonight so I can get some sleep. 
 Bob is going to the doctors tomorrow. I know you will be with him & Meme. Hopefully they will get some answers & that Bob will start feeling better, He finally got his medical alert system. He seemed to be more relaxed. I hope it gives them both a piece of mind that they need & deserve. Grandpa & the rest of the family is doing well. I hope to get up there in a couple weeks to see everyone.
 I hope to see the stars & moon tonight when I go outside to walk the pup. I will whisper to you as I always do. I hope you hear Mom & smile when you hear my voice. I wish you a peaceful night & so many sweet dreams. Come visit me in mine. I will be waiting. Princess is giving you a kiss because she just licked the computer...lol.
 I miss you so much & I love you beyond this world. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. I will write a longer letter tomorrow. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!