Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? I hope it was sunny like it was here for Mom but much warmer than 12 degrees. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you last night. I had every intention on writing you when Mark was watching one of his taped shows but everything kind of got shattered when we took Snicks out for his nightly walk. Ty, it was horrible. We got outside & Mom & Mark were talking & looking at the moon, stars, & the planes going by while Snicks was sniffing around. We started walking where we usually do & met some of the neighbors taking their pups for a walk to. We exchanged hellos & pettings for the pups & went on our merry way. Coming towards us was a car that was rounding the corner. We moved out of the way & the next thing I heard was a loud " thud " sound. I whipped my head around to see that the driver had ran one of the other gals dogs over. There was screaming & crying everywhere. Mark took Snicks inside while Mom tried to help the situation. One dog got away & the other was hit. The owner didn't even know until she came to the car & saw what happened. Her pups were not on a leash & the driver was speeding. It was a mess. I was a mess. It brought me back to when Baxter got hit & killed in front of me. That driver never stopped either... he kept on going. I came inside & I needed to just zone out for a bit. Guess I needed more than I thought because I zoned out all night. Went to bed around 11pm & Mark said that Mom was really restless... legs kicking, etc... it was just a rough night over all. Mom cried & whispered to you after that all happened. Did you hear me? I wish that I could have called you or skyped with you. I just needed to hear your voice. I still need to hear your voice, to see your face, to see your smile... I long for that.
 I have a couple daily prayers to write so let me get to that right now. March 5~ Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly. Heavenly Father, when you came to earth to show us how to live, you did so not for your own glory, but out of love for us. In turn, your rules are ways that you show your love, not an attempt to control or thwart our free will. By giving us guidelines, you are helping us live fulfilling, spiritual, & safe lives. When I follow your commandments, it is a way of showing you how much I love you in return. Please help me remember how to love you every day. Amen. When we let Christ become the source of our wisdom, he will guide us in making wise decisions & acting on them.
 March 6~ If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, pray, seek my face, & turn from their wicked ways. then I will hear from heaven, & will forgive their sin & heal their land. O God, how we have wreaked havoc in this land you created for us! Lord, we are guilty of calling evil good & good evil. We have erected false idols before you in the form of wealth, success, beauty, or athletic achievement, & to these false idols we give far too much attention & allegiance. All around us we see the consequences of greed & self -destruction. We claim we are too busy to pray & too overbooked to worship. Lord, we humbly come to you now & ask you to forgive us. And please, Lord heal our land. God will eagerly forgive our mistakes in the hope that we will learn & grow from them.
 I am once again caught up, Tyler...lol. The night sky is upon us now. The sky is clear & dark & the weather is clear & crisp. I think I will be able to see the moon & the stars tonight so I am looking forward to that. I will be sure to whisper to you as I always do. I hope you will hear Mom's voice. The weekend weather is suppose to be sunny & in the 40's. We will be getting a heat wave. We have lots to do this weekend but I will have all the time to write to you. 
 I hope that you have a peaceful night. May you be flying high & freely where ever you want to go. I hope that if you can rest I wish you the sweetest of dreams. I will wish & hope to see you in mine. I love you, Tyler & I miss you so very much. You will forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!