Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? I hope that all is well with you wherever you are at this moment in time. Mom is doing ok. I have been up fairly early & I am tired but mostly I am pissed off. I just got off the phone with Aunt Becky & she could hear it in my voice. She told me that I have so much anger inside me that it is eating me alive.. it is poisoning me & I need to do something about it. I know she is correct. I feel exactly the way she was telling me that she could hear & feel. I just don't know what to do. I have very little resources to choose from & it always seems like I have excuses on why I am not doing something but that is not the case at all. I feel my hands are tied. I have no car to go anywhere & even if I did I really have no where to go. I have been living this life style for 3 years now that I don't know how to even get out of my own way. I am not around very many people anymore & I find myself not wanting to be around anyone. I have nothing to say or any conversation to engage in. This is so not Mom. This is really hard for me as I used to be such a people person. I was working in retail & being around people all the time. Now I am such a loner & I really dislike that. 
 Princess just laid on the computer & typed you a bunch of zzzzzzzz's. It was cute. I should have just kept it. I think you would have laughed about it just as I did. She was a good girl today. She went potty outside & on the pee pad. I was very happy about that. It was such a nice change! If you are working your magic then please continue. I really need all the help I can get! I am not sure if you have been listening to Mom then you will be knowing that at the end of the week we will be getting another addition. This little guy is 10 weeks old & he is a rust color & smooth hair like Snicks was. His name right now is Charmer but we are going to change it to Ozzy. I can't wait to meet him & see his little face. I hope that Princess gets along with him or there is going to be some hard choices to make. I need more of your magic, Tyler! Thanks pumpkin! 
 The stars & moon were so bright & beautiful last night. It made me smile. I whispered to you..did you hear Mom? I wish it was warmer because I would have stayed out longer & gone for a walk but the wind was just so awful. It went right through me & after 5 minutes I was so cold. So tired of this weather. This week there is a day that will be 60 degrees but with rain. I just can't wait for the summer days. Maybe that will help Mom out. I think that I should see the stars & moon again tonight as the sky is so clear today. I will whisper to you again so be listening. 
 I hope that you have a wonderful afternoon & evening. May it be peaceful & restful. I hope that you have sweet dreams. I hope I see you in my own dreams tonight. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS  Here is your quote for today~  When you keep God first place, His blessings will chase you down. We've all had disappointments in the past, but don't get stuck in a defeated mindset, Stay in faith, God has good things coming your way.