Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin. How are you doing today? Mom is feeling a little better than yesterday. I actually got some sleep last night & got some more this morning. Princess was really quiet too & slept so that made it very easy for Mom. I just wish she would just go potty outside for us. If & when that happens she will be a really good girl & a sweet pup. I know that you would really like her, Tyler. You would think she is such a cutie. I can hear you now. You would be so proud of Mom & Mark for rescuing her from a puppy mill. 
 The weather here was sunny & really cold. The wind again was just whipping out there. It stings your face & it hurts. Tomorrow is the 1st day of Spring & we are suppose to be getting snow, sleet, & freezing rain all weekend...go figure, huh? Got to love being back in New England...NOT!!!! Easter is coming up in a couple weeks. Makes me happy that I will see our family & friends but sad that this is the 2nd one without you. I really have a very hard time with the holidays now. I try  & people believe me but inside I am crushed & I am happy when they are over. It is just not the same anymore. 
 Today we received a card from the VCA Hospital. It was so sweet of them to send a symphony card for losing Snickers. When I read it I cried. It hurt & brought me back to last week. It is still hard. I miss my buddy so much. I miss Max too. I miss you the most though. Tomorrow will be 21 months since you left & received your wings. These days are the toughest for Mom. I still replay the 18th - the 20th of every month over & over in my head. It crushes me more & more. It sucks. It hurts Mom. I whispered to you earlier, did you hear Mom? I spoke to you when I saw the time 12:12pm. That time will always hold a very special meaning to Mom & you know why. I love you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Always remember that.
 I have a few quotes that I found from Pastors that I think I will start to write to you on my letters to you for a bit. This will replace the daily prayers that I used to do. I will start these tomorrow. It just seems fitting for Mom. I think you will like them & I will enjoy writing them to you. Some may be short so I will do a couple but if they are longer than there will be just 1 a day.
 The sky should be clear tonight so I will be looking for those stars & the moon shining brightly. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be hearing Mom's voice when I chat with you. I am not sure if you sleep at all anymore but if you do I hope you have many sweet dreams tonight. I hope that when I fall asleep tonight I will get to see you in my dreams my sweet precious son. You will be forever in my heart, mind, & soul. 
 All my love, Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!