Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Happy St. Patrick's Day to you in the heavens above. I hope you are celebrating wherever you are as you are Irish! Today has always been a difficult day for Mom as 26 years ago Pepe decided it was time to leave the physical world & fly up to heaven & receive his wings. I will never forget that day. I was in school & Meme came and told me. I somehow already knew even before she told me. I didn't understand it then but I sure do now. I have always not wanted to celebrate this day because it always made me sad, but as I get older I have learned to celebrate it as I am Irish too & I celebrate Pepe. When I was growing up we would always go out to dinner on this night. Grandpa, Pepe, Nana, Meme, Mom, & Aunt Becky would go out & everyone would get green beer... well except us kids. We would get a green Shirley Temple...lol! I have very fond memories of my childhood on this day & all holidays. I have fond memories with you as I passed down these traditions. I sure do miss them all. During holidays I just tend to go through the motions of the day as it really doesn't mean much to Mom anymore. I know that is sad but I can't help it. 
 So the weather here is better than this morning. It was really raining outside earlier. Now the skies have cleared & it is blue & the sun is shining. Such a nice surprise. I went outside last night but I didn't see anything shining up there but it didn't matter I still chatted away with you. Hope you heard Mom. I think I might get a chance to see the stars & moon tonight so that will make me happy. You will see my smile & I again will whisper to you. Be listening for Mom. I hope you are able to hear me.
 Update on the new pup Princess... things are just not going well. I was hoping that things would change but I am afraid that they will not. She is a wonderful little girl that is just so sweet & cute but unfortunately she was never trained & I don't think she can ever be. She was caged probably most of the time & went potty wherever she wanted & needed to. She doesn't know how to go for a walk & she doesn't play with her toys that we got her. Makes me sad but I don't think we can give her the life that she had or needs. We can love her, spoil her rotten but she is just completely messing the apartment up & we can not have this. She has pottied so much that we have to replace the carpets already. I can't get the stains out... odor is gone but not the yellow stains. I get angry because we take her outside for 15 minutes or more every couple hours...she does nothing & then the minute we get inside she goes on the carpet. I know I shouldn't get mad but I can't help it. I am the only one who is cleaning it up. I am not getting any help at all. I think she will have to go back to the lady that we got her from. Mark is angry with me but he is not here, he doesn't see what I go through... it is just not fair to get judged when someone is not here. Anything you can do to help Mom or help Princess that would be wonderful. I need all I can get. Thanks pumpkin!
 So yesterday I told you that I was finished with the daily prayers & that I needed to find something else. I have a prayer that I will be posting today. It won't be in my letter to you but it will be in the pictures today. There are several pics by the way. I found so many I wanted to post to you so I hope you like them all. I know that Jack will be your favorite..lol!
 I am hoping that your afternoon & evening will be peaceful & restful. May it be all that you want it to be & what you need it to be. I hope that you have several sweet dreams tonight. I hope to see you in my dreams too. May you know that you are missed & loved by so many but not as much as I do. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!