Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? I hope that you are well & smiling that amazing smile that I miss so much. Mom is doing as well as I can be! The weather is cool, cloudy & rainy. Sometimes that plays on my mood a bit. I used to hate the rain but now I really embrace it as I believe it rains to wash away the negative things in our lives & in this world & replaces it with the positive. 
 I am so sorry that I didn't do my letter to you last night. I started one during the afternoon & then my computer needed charging, I started to make dinner & said I would finish it later & after everything was done I was not feeling so hot so I laid on the couch & watched tv & then went to bed at 9:30pm. I guess I was pretty tired. I woke up once during the night & then not again until 6:30am. I know you are with me all the time so I know you see everything I do & how I feel. 
 Today is a pretty exciting day for us here. Today is the day that we are getting the little guy Ozzy! As I type this is he is on his way to Miami,Florida for a couple hours & he will be landing near us around 4pm. I can't wait to see him. He is tiny. I was told he was no heavier than 4lbs & no longer than 8". He is rust color & a smooth doxie like Snicks was. I know that later on you will be here to see him & I can hear your voice saying that " oh they are so cute " & then you would laugh your little laugh. Gosh, I miss that so much. We both shared the love for animals. We would always say we wanted them all... well most animals..no reptiles for Mom though even though you liked them! 
 Everything else is going better here. A big improvement since last weekend that is for sure. Getting things done & our belongings should be arriving to us by the end of this weekend after a 3 week battle with the company to get them..ugh! Princess is doing better too. She is still puppy training but it is getting better. She has masted the stairs so that is wonderful. She is going potty on a puppy pad instead of the carpet which is just an easy clean up for Mom. Hopefully when the weather gets warmer she will be going potty outside. I am crossing my fingers that she will get along with Ozzy. I hope she embraces him & not ignores him or is scared or mean to him. We really have fallen in love with her & do not want to take her back to where we got her from. We need your magic, Tyler! I know you will help out as much as you can. I love you & appreciate whatever you can do to help. Thank you.
 Here are a couple sayings & quotes that I found for you today. " There are as many perspectives, versions, & changeability to each of our stories as there are drops in a wave. While our stories unfold, their form & meaning depend entirely on what perspective we choose. " 
 " Our children are only lent to us, We never know just how long we will be able to keep them for. So kiss them, cuddle them, praise them, & hold them tightly, But most of all tell them you love them everyday. "
 " Mothers hold their children's hands for a short while, but their hearts forever. "
 I would like to believe that I was the best Mom that I could be to you, Tyler. I hope that I made you proud. I know you made Mom proud & it was an honor that you chose me for your Mom. You are still my everything, the love of my life & my true hero! I hope you never forget this!
 Well, I have a feeling that tonight I will not be seeing the stars & moon shining brightly as it is still raining outside. Doesn't matter to Mom though because I know you are up there somewhere shining the brightest you can. I just saw that tomorrow there is a 70% chance of snow...ugh! This madness just has to stop...lol. Winter needs to go away so I can get the warm weather back that I miss. I hope that it is always warm where you are. I miss you so much & I love you beyond words can express. I hope that your evening will be eventful, restful, & peaceful. May it be what you want it to be always. I hope you have sweet dreams if you do indeed sleep. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight my sweet precious son. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!