Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is having a tough day today. 21 months ago you left the physical world to go be with God to have eternal life. I have my good days & bad days but most are bad. I try so hard so that you can see me smile & laugh & enjoying life, but most of the time I just can't. When you left this world you took a piece of Mom, a piece of my heart that I will never get back. I am sorry, Tyler. It is just the way it is for Mom. You must know that I am not mad at you & never have been. You endured so much here in this world. You were so strong & overcame so many things even doctors didn't think was possible. You showed so many family, friends, & even strangers what it was like to be an inspiration to live your life to the fullest even with the cards that you were dealt with. You showed so much strength & love to all who loved you, who you loved, & to those you didn't even know. You were a Hero to Mom & to everyone. I am such a proud Momma. I talk about you all the time to so many people. I am proud of you. I always have been & I always will. I also want you to know that Mom is happy that you are no longer in pain. That you don't have to worry about your vent, your wounds, your chair, & so many more things. You can finally be freed of all your limitations that held you back here. I can't wait for the day that I get to see it again. You got sick at the age of 3 years old. I can't wait to see you walk again & I can't wait until I can get a hug again from my sweet precious son! That day will be filled with tears of joy only & something that I will cherish for my eternity. 
 Today is the 1st day of Spring. Winter is supposed to be behind us but I guess Mother Nature has other plans for us. It is bleak outside, cloudy with gray skies & anytime now we will be getting snow, sleet, & freezing rain. This will go on for all the weekend. Like everyone else, I am done with winter & I just want the sun shining all the time & for it to be warm again. I look forward to those days ahead. The sunrise this morning was amazing. It was orange with pinks & purples. Just breathtaking. I took some pictures of it. I hope you got to see it too. I am sure if you did you had a fabulous view! 
 Oh yeah, on a good note we will be receiving our belongings from Texas either Sunday or Monday. It will be great to see our stuff again after 3 long months. I can't wait to get pictures on the wall & get our apartment here all set up. I am happy & excited about this.
 Princess is doing good. I think she is starting to get used to her new place & her new surroundings. She is still not doing all that well with the potty training but I have hope that in time she will. I walked her earlier & she surprised me when she pooped outside! I was so excited! I think we are on the right start that we need! Now we... well she needs to master the peeing part & all will be well. I am keeping my fingers crossed. I know that you are helping as much as you can too. Thanks pumpkin!
 So today I am going to start the quotes or phrases that I want to write to you daily. Some may be longer than others so I will only do 1 & others will be short & I will do 2 or 3. These will be all positive sayings as I don't want any negative things in your letters or anymore in my life that I already have. I hope you enjoy them as much as Mom does. Here is the 1st one: " Prayer is not a " spare wheel " that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a " steering wheel " that directs the right path throughout life. " 
 " The more you use the power within you, the more you will draw it to you. You will reach a point where you won't need to practice anymore, because you will BE the power, you will BE the perfection, you will BE the wisdom, you will BE the intelligence, you will BE the love, you will BE the joy. 
 I don't know if I will see the stars & moon tonight in the sky. I am thinking probably not as the weather is going to get crappy really soon. I will however know in my heart that no matter where you are or what you have to do or want to be doing you are shining your brightest. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you can hear Mom. I love you with all my heart. No words can ever express how much that is or how much I truly miss you. Sweet dreams tonight & hope to see you in mine. You will forever be in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!