Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom feels like such a  " bleep" for not writing to you yesterday as it was Easter Sunday. I know that you were with me & saw Mom but I have to be honest & tell you how guilty I felt & still feel. A good Mom would have written no matter what but your Mom traveled in the afternoon & then had to unpack a full truck & do laundry, not to mention we had a skype call with Mark's Dad & Karen. We ate dinner at 6:30pm, the skype call at 7pm - 8pm, finished laundry at 8:30pm, & then finish unpacking. Finished it all at 10pm & I couldn't even keep my eyes open so I went to bed just to get back up & was sick pretty much all night so I really didn't get much sleep at all. I was up at 6am with the pups too. Pretty much all day today I have done nothing. I did do mopping, vacuuming, & some other cleaning but for the most part I have been trying to sleep on & off when the pups do. Mark just called to let me know that the big bosses are coming to his work tomorrow so he will have to be in his office really early...I sure hope that I get some good sleep tonight so I can function during the day. Anything magic that you can create & do for Mom will be much appreciated. Thanks pumpkin.
 The weekend back home went well. We arrived around 3pm on Friday & spent some time with Meme & Bob & then Friday night we visited with Marion & Charlie. Saturday was spent running around & seeing Kristina for a couple hours & then over to Meme & Bob's for a few hours for our Easter dinner & then during the night we played cards with Marion, Charlie, Chris Amos & his girlfriend. Easter Sunday was spent seeing Meme & bob for a couple hours again, then I went to the cemetery to visit you, Nana & Pepe, & Wendy. After that we went to visit Grandpa for a couple hours & then from there we headed on the road to go back home. It was a very busy weekend & time went by way too fast. We didn't get to see everyone we wanted to though. It really is hard to try & see everyone in a time frame of 2 days. I think that people don't understand that. We are the ones traveling everywhere & everyone wants to see us but they think that we have to go to them. Unfortunately, it does not work that way. When we travel we don't mind going to some but people need to come to us too. Fair is fair, ya know? Anyways... it was so good to see Meme, Bob, & Grandpa. It was way too long seeing them & I miss them so much. When I came to see you I stayed strong while talking to you but when I went into the truck while Mark went to talk to you I kinda lost it. It still is so hard for me & I think it always will. I let everyone know that Mom would be back up for my birthday weekend & then at the end of June for your anniversary & the Relay For Life. I would really like to get there once a month while the weather is good. We shall see if that works....
 We are still awaiting the arrival of our belongings from Texas. This is getting ridiculous. They packed our stuff up on March 9th & today is April 6th.... almost 1 month. I am wondering if we will ever really get them back. I call & the company still tells me 1 thing & then another. I haven't called back in over a week because I am so tired of the excuses & lies they are telling us. Mark & Mom have decided that after reviewing all the contacts & paperwork if we don't get our things this week then we will be getting an attorney involved. I am so sick of this crap. This is the 2nd time going through this stuff. Will keep you posted on this.
 The pups are doing ok. Princess is warming up to Mom a little more each day but still quite scared. Ozzy is still a tiny thing at 12 weeks old. He gives me a run for my money that is for sure. It is so hard to potty train 2 pups at a time. Princess is 8 years old but was crated all her life so she was never trained correctly. Mom is still wanting to start taking classes but is waiting another month so that the pups get acclimated more & I am not running after them all the time. They need to be more independent & able to hold their bladders better for mom to do this. I am very excited to start this. I think I will be pretty good at it. I really want to get back into working & making my own money again after being out of the work field for 3 years. I would also like to contribute to the bills too. 
 The evening sky will be approaching us in a couple hours. I am hoping to see the stars & moon shining brightly as the next 4 days it will be gloomy & raining so I know I won't be seeing them those nights. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening out for Mom's voice. I wish you the best night ever. I hope that it is all that you want & need no matter where you are. I hope that if you do indeed rest you have the sweetest dreams ever. I hope to get some sleep tonight & see you in my own dreams. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. I love you so much & I miss you beyond anything in this world. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here are a couple sayings or quotes for you today: 

Life is not a race but indeed a journey. Be honest. Work hard. Be choosy. Say " thank you ", " I love you ", & " great job ", to someone each day. Take time for prayer. Be thankful. Love your life & what you've been given, it is not accidental. Search for your purpose & do it as best you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become that which you aspire to be. Laugh often. Appreciate the little things in life & enjoy them. Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry. Forgive, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself. Plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know. Live for today. Enjoy the moment.

The night has fallen, the day is done. The moon has taken the place of the sun. Close your eyes & snuggle up tight, Angels will watch over you tonight.

Those we love don't go away, They walk beside us every day. Unseen, unheard, but always near, still loved, still missed & very dear.

Love you to pieces Tyler!