Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing today? Mom is going at it at all ends. Not much sleep & trying to be supportive to Mark & Meme as we all are going through so much right now. I know you see it all. I know you know everything that we are all emotional about. I am not sure what to do & Mom is just so emotional right now. I could fall asleep at the drop of a hat but I don't. I am on the telephone with Meme, Grandpa, Aunt Becky, etc... to get updates & give updates about Bob & Uncle Joe. I let Mark do his thing so that he can get everything in on a daily basis that will help us out in the long run. Things are not going the greatest for Bob & I am really worried about this. I am worried for him & Meme. We are awaiting still to find out about Uncle Joe & how his surgery went. He had major open heart surgery this morning. Things with Mom & Mark are still the same. No real leads at this time but I know you are watching our us & everyone else. Thank you so much for all that you do & will continue to do for us all. 
 There is not much new going on as you know. I am so sorry that Mom does not have much to say because of everything going on & our worlds are turned upside down, but what I will say is that I miss you so much. I find right now that I am more teary eyed then normal. I seem to cry at the drop of a hat. I am scared now for so many reasons & I am not sure how to handle it all. I wish that you were here with me so that we could talk about everything. You could calm Mom down & talk sense to me. I hurt so much Tyler because you are no longer with Mom. I can't help it. I try my best but my best doesn't seem good enough. I am so sorry. I will continue to try harder. Just bare with Mom.
 The stars & moon have been out shining brightly during the night. It has been so beautiful to see them all. It makes me smile & I whisper to you all the time. I know you are shining so bright wherever you are. I hope to see the stars shining brightly tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will hear Mom chatting with you. 
 I hope that tonight will be all that you need & want it to be for yourself. I hope you do whatever it is to make you happy. If you do get to rest I hope that you have the sweetest dreams ever. I hope that when Mom goes to sleep tonight I will get to see you in my own dreams. You will forever be in my heart, mind, & soul. I love you so much my sweet precious son. Please remember this. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. I wanted to share with you Mom's favorite quote from all time.

" Life is not measured by the breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away. "

Here is another quote..

" God didn't add another day to your life because you needed it, he added it because someone out there needs you. " 

Love you xoxoxo