Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! Happy Monday to you. Hope you are somewhere sunny & warm. Mom is doing ok today. The weather is cold but sunny. I have been enjoying the last several days with having the sun out. It was so nice & warm for this time of the year around here. The next couple days will be cold, wet & rainy. We might even be getting some snow but the ground really is not frozen any more so it won't really stay. That won't hurt my feelings at all...lol! Mom took a day & really did nothing. I talked on the phone with a friend for a bit. Tried to cheer him up as there is a lot going on in his life. I wish Mom could do so much more for him but I just don't know what. He is such a sweetheart & love him dearly. I hate seeing him in such pain & being all stressed out. It hurts Mom. Mom prays that things in his life will get better & soon. Anything you can do on your side would be so sweet & appreciated. Thank you my sweet precious son. It means so much.
 Aunt Beck called Mom today. We had a really great chat over the phone. It was so nice to hear her voice after not talking for 2 weeks. I missed her bunches. Sounds like her business trip was a very productive one & that is so awesome. I am excited for her & the upcoming business that she is a part of. They are home for 8 days & then back traveling to South America for a few weeks of vacation. I know you will be with them both yet again when they are back on the road. Thanks Ty! Not much else is going on. It was a pretty quiet day for all here. Mark worked from home today & was quite busy & like I said Mom just relaxed & did a few things that needed to get done earlier this afternoon. Made one of your favorite meals...homemade beef stew. Been cooking all day. Smells really good. I remember the times that I would cook your favorites. Made me smile to think back on those times. Things were always rough & tough for you. Not a day that went by that Mom did not see you struggle in more ways than one. Even though words were not spoken I saw everything. Mom hurt for you every day. It crushed me to no end that I was so helpless. I tried & gave it my all. I just hope it was enough for you. I hope that the short years that you were here with Mom you experienced many joys & happiness even though you lived with such heartache & pain. Mom wonders this all the time. I wish I would have asked you so I could have that answer...now it is just another thing that I will always wonder.
 Do you remember Mom's friend Holly ( you went to college with her ) the one I graduated with. I would talk to you about her losing her daughter Becca...Holly also passed unexpectedly last March.... her husband, Harold sent Mom the sweetest message. I am going to copy it to the letter so the writing will be different but it was just too heart felt not to share with you or the world. I will include it at the end of the letter to you. I think you will be just as touched as Mom was. Mom still has not heard from that other lady yet since the last time we spoke. I am hoping she is just busy. Mom sees the dark side she is in & I hope that she is ok. I am worried but I keep tabs on her without anyone knowing. I plan on reaching out to her tomorrow. 
 Think that is all I have for you right now but here is the daily prayer for you today. February 22~ All scripture is given by inspiration of God & is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: That the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works. Father, your Word makes it clear to me that the life of faith is not passive. While we wait for you to answer prayer, grant wisdom & open doors, we also keep our minds sharp & our hearts strengthened by reading & studying your Word, by meeting with you in prayer & by finding encouragement among other believers. These are disciplines our souls need to stay focused on ever-present hope. Amen.
 The evening sky is upon us yet again for the night. I guess the full moon is tonight & not last night. Hope Mom gets a chance to see it. Hope Mom gets to see the stars shining bright as well. I will whisper to you as I always do so I hope that you hear me nightly & you will be listening out for my voice. Smile when you do. Smile that smile I miss so much. Mom hopes that your evening is filled with what you need it to be & want it to be. Rest if you can & close those beautiful big brown eyes of yours with those long thick eyelashes that we all adorable & were jealous of. Sweet dreams my sweet sweet pumpkin. Mom hopes you will visit me in my dreams tonight as well. I miss you so & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. You continue to be my world & that will never change. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you. Fly high with all the Angels. Give Max & Snickers a big hug & kiss from Mom. I miss them too but I know you are all together & you are taking good care of them for Mom. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Here is the message that Mom got from Holly's husband, Harold. There is no doubt in my mind that you, Holly & Becca were right there making him feel the way he was. Like Mom said I am sure it will touch you as it did me. I love you, Tyler. 
 I've experienced this feeling about being in cemeteries from my teens, a good one where I find this peace n comfort and just love to be in one and let the mind freefall through thoughts. It can even be a cemetery where I know no one in it. I forget the name of the one that your loving son is at but I parked by his site for about 30 minutes today and just was enjoying my feeling when at one.