Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is writing to you early again because I am so unsure of what may take place later because of the weather. Yesterday is started out with rain, then later in the night it changed into sleet, & early this morning it changed to snow & it has been doing it ever since. We had a winter advisory from 1am until 3pm today. Well....it is 4:30 pm & it is still snowing & showing no signs of stopping any time soon. Mom was hoping for a no snow winter this year... guess that is out the window now, huh? We are in for another snow storm on Monday into Tuesday or Tuesday into Wednesday? I am not impressed...... Mom hopes that the next one will miss us completely. Time will tell I guess. 
 The sun is just setting right now & the sky is absolutely gorgeous, Tyler. Mom did not think that we would see anything tonight as the sky today was completely white. It was stunning. Mom went out on our balcony & took some pictures of the sunset. I posted them on facebook so hopefully you will see them. Were you up there painting that sky tonight? Wouldn't surprise Mom as you were an amazing painter. It made me smile just thinking about it. I bet where you are you get to see amazing sunrises & sunsets all over the world. I often wonder what it looks like for you. I an only imagine that it is the most incredible thing. Bet the stars are the same way. I know we see them completely different from where we both are but no matter what we are still under the same sky even though we are worlds apart now. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. You will forever remain my everything. You will continue to be my world. Nothing or no one will ever change that. Hope you know this & you can feel it in my heart. 
 The other day Mom was looking through memories that I had shared on facebook through the years & saw one that came across Mom's screen from you. I was surprised, I smiled, I cried. I took a snapshot of it with my cell phone so I could have it forever. It's things like that, that I hold onto. Those memories are all that I have now. They mean so much to me. 
 You know what makes me smile the most now? It is when I talk about you to someone or someone brings up your name & we chat about all the good times. Friends can say anything about you & it melts my heart. They can tell me to tell you " hi " or they can share a story about the 2 of you. I love hearing it all. It makes Mom know that you are still alive in all their hearts as well as mine. You touched so many people. You were an inspiration to all you met, who met you & even total strangers. You gave so much & asked for so little in return. You made Mom proud & you still do as I know you are doing so many wonderful things were you are. I know you are making a difference still in the lives that need you. Your friend Sam said it best & I will never forget what she said which was you were " Ty -Dye to her... Your soul had every color of the rainbow. You were special to her. I remember bringing her several times with me to see you. I now she visits you often. Do you sit next to her when she is there? She got another tattoo for you...have you seen it? Mom has & it is really sweet. Speaking of tattoos.... Mom is finally going to get the nerve to go get one. I am going to get the 4 Leaf Clover that we talked about. It will have your dates around it along with Pepe's. I am thinking of making the appointment for my Birthday. Just not sure where I will get it...ankle, shoulder or under left collar bone in the front. 
 Let's see updates for you today....spoke to Meme & she is well. Bob is doing better. Spoke to Grandpa last night. He is well. Worked a lot this week, Debbie is still getting used to her job & working nights, Aunt Shirley is still having a hard time with her back, Grammy is doing the best she can. She has her good days & bad days...seems like more bad now which makes Mom so sad but I do know it is a part of life, finally got to speak to Aunt Beck for awhile tonight. She is excited to get out of the US & head to South America. They leave Sunday. She is almost all packed & ready to go. She will be emailing me when they get there so I can let every one know she & John made it safe. Bean is doing well. Busy as always.  know you will be with each one of us so Mom knows we are all in good hands. Thank you pumpkin. That's all for the updates tonight.
 Here are the 2 daily prayers that I need to catch up on. February 4~ Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer & supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. Prayer, O God, is as steadying as a hand on the rudder of a free-floating boat & as reliable as sunrise after night. It keeps me going, connected as I am to you, the source of wind beneath my daily wings. Amen. ( Ty, I just got goosebumps with that last line of the prayer! )
 February 5~ But godliness with contentment is great gain. I celebrate the gift of contentment, knowing there is no guarantee it will last. But for now, it's great to rest---just rest---in this wonderful calm. Amen.
 Mom is all caught up. The night sky has been upon us now for a couple of hours. Not going to have a chance to see anything in the sky as far as stars & the moon but that is ok. Mom will be whispering to you as I always do each night. Hope you hear my voice & if so smile that smile that Mom misses so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you like crazy & more than words can say. 
 Hope your night is peaceful. May it be all that you want & need it to be. If you do rest up there where you are Mom wishes you the sweetest of dreams. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight when it is time for me to fall asleep. Remember that you are in my heart, mind & soul. You are my Hero & you are Mom's wind beneath my wings.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!