Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? As you have been able to see Mom has had a pretty sh*tty day today but I want you to know I am ok. It was a long day yesterday & night last night as Mark had to work. It was suppose to be from 12 midnight to 3 am but it actually was 11 pm to 6 am this morning. The dogs were not that good for Mom so I did not really get to sleep all that much. Mom is pretty tired tonight as well. Hope I am able to get some much needed rest tonight. Mom was not sure if I was going to write to you tonight because of the letter that I wrote to you last night. It was dark & Mom was upset & angry & that has not changed at all. That is how my day has gone today as well but Mom thought that no matter what I need to write to you even if it is a small letter. It makes me feel good, makes me feel closer to you & that is what I need right now. I need my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. I had a good cry today. I know you saw Mom & that makes you sad but it was needed. I needed to release the emotions, Tyler. I know I don't have to explain myself to you but I want to. Mom has so much going on in her head right now. I have to think of the now & the future. I have to think of myself for a change & I am having a hard time with that seeings how I always put myself last or others have done it for me. I have never been first & I think this is the time to start with that change. I know you would agree. I know you are upset & sad at what you are seeing & witnessing. Mom will make a promise to you that things will get better one way or the other. Give me a few days to get my stuff together & my head in the right place. I will stay strong pumpkin. I am a fighter. I am a Survivor!
 Seems like lately Mom has no updates for you that much. Last night was very quiet & today/tonight was even more quiet. Mom didn't talk at all. It is 8 pm already so I know I will not be talking to anyone. Maybe tomorrow I will have something for you. Mom did get a really sweet gesture from a couple of my friends. They are the ones who live in South Carolina. Their names are Gary & Linda. He sent Mom a message telling me he took a picture of something for me. It was a picture of the streets of Paris with the Eiffel Tower in the background. It was really cute. He asked if I wanted it. I was so shocked. It is so sweet of them to part with it & think of Mom. Guess everyone knows my love for Paris, huh....lol. One day I will go there.... that is a definite for sure. Gary told Mom to tell you that he says hello too. He is a good guy. He is Mom's best friend. We have known each other for 30 years. I wish we would have reconnected while you were with me but I know that you know who he is now so that is all that matters. 
 Here is your daily prayer for today. February 28~ For the grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is a gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. Lord, I am grateful that you don't have a list of criteria for being eligible for salvation. What insecurity that would create in us! I feel blessed that I don't need to resort to servile fear or self important boasting when it comes to my standing with you. Your salvation is a gift available to all & secured by your merits ( not mine ). It is received only by grace through faith in you. Amen.
 This year is leap year so tomorrow is the last day of February. Mom's daily prayer book does not have one for that day as it comes only every 4 years so Mom will find something else for tomorrow to write to you. Mom forgot to tell you that yesterday was Bob's birthday. Today is Auntie Jacqui's birthday. Maybe you could go visit bot of them & give them a big hug. I am sure they would like that very much. As always.... make yourself known but do not scare them...lol.
 Well, it has been night now for the last few hours. Mom is going to head to bed as I am so tired. My eyes are closing. Hope that you have a wonderful night doing all the things you want & need. If you can get some rest & have sweet dreams. Come see Mom in my own dreams tonight. Thank you. I will also look to the sky in a couple minutes & whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night my sweet son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!