Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on this Wednesday evening? Mom has had a pretty busy day today. Another emotional day again though. Mom has so much on her mind that I am literally drowning in my own thoughts these days. I noticed the date & Mom usually gets this way the middle of the month as it is but there are some things that I need to really sort through. I will not go into details on here as this is my letter to you & not a place to air my problems. Mom knows that you know what is going on & you see & hear all. You know what I am going through & I pray to you that you will help Mom from where you are. I need your help & I need you by my side. I want to make the right decisions & I don't want to make any mistakes & have regrets down the road. Thank you my sweet boy. 
 Today was such a nice day. The snow is almost all completely melted. Doesn't hurt my feelings one bit. I would love to see no more the rest of the season but we both know that will not happen. I know we will get socked with another good storm before Spring. It was sunny, so sunny today. Mom was forgetting what it actually looked like as it has been over 7 days since I have seen it last. The temp was in the 40's. It really was beautiful outside. Mom finally got to take the pups out for a really long walk. They were so happy. These guys hate the rain & the snow so on those days it is quickly in & out. I know they are waiting for the nicer weather as well as Mom is. I can't wait for Spring & Summer again. The long days & the warmth of the sun. Not sure just how much I will be seeing of it but that is ok. Mom is going to finally be starting to study for her certification exam next week. I will be taking a couple weeks to look things over & then I will be going right into the exam itself. This means full days of study & exams for the next 7 weeks. It is going to be tough but I know you are right by my side & will be rooting me on just like I know our family & friends will be too. Mom can't wait to finish all this & then go look for a job. I miss it. It has been 4 long years & I am ready to get back out there. I know I can do it. I am nervous, anxious & excited all in one. I know it will be a big change but I will & am ready for it all!
 Funny.... I didn't hear from Grandpa last night or the last couple of nights so I am sure I will be hearing from them later tonight. I think they are doing well though. Aunt Shirley got in touch with me. She was telling me that Tony is doing the best to be expected & they are waiting to have her older son come home from the service before they do anything for Frank's services. Makes me sad. He was a good man. You liked him very much. She was also telling Mom that she was in a lot of pain. Her back is hurting her a great deal & she is now having trouble walking. She called her doctor & will be going to see her tomorrow. Hope she gets some answers. She hasn't been able to go see Grammy either. She was saying that lately Grammy is really giving up. She is get sick more & it lasts longer & longer. You & I know how that is.... it was that way with you towards the end. Mom saw it but never said anything to you. I couldn't because I knew I would cry in front of you & I didn't want that. You had too much to deal with to see Mom be so weak. I did it when I was alone. I know you understand it all now. That makes me feel better. Guess some things never change though. I still cry when I am alone & never in front of anyone if I can help it. Guess I am just a private person that way. Anyways.... Meme also called me on her lunch break. Things with her are also so messy. She is still having issues with her vehicle, Bob will be having his vehicle fixed at a cheaper cost so that is good but the thing that worries Mom is the fact that Bob is acting really funny again. The things Meme described to me it sounds like medicine related. Told Meme to talk to the doctors about it all. I really hope that is all that it is. If not I am so happy to be closer to home now so I can go be with them if need be instead of being in Texas & 2200 miles away. Please watch over them. Mom is worried about everyone right now. Thank you my sweet precious son. I know you will do all that you can to keep us healthy & safe. We all are in good hands with you being our Guardian Angel. 
 Here is your daily prayer for today. February 17~ And these all, having obtained a good report through faith, received not the promise: God having provided some better thing for us, that they without us should not be made perfect. Although our eyes should always be turned upward God, sometimes we can do with a reminder of God's work just a little bit closer to home. The faith of others can serve as a reminder or an inspiration to strengthen our own faith. Just as we should provide encouragement to others, we can also draw on others to help steady ourselves. Amen. 
 While Mom was writing that prayer I was wondering if you were near me? I ask that because I was getting a scent that I was familiar with but couldn't put my finger on what it was. Was it you? Was it Nana or Pepe? Or perhaps it was the 3 of you. I don't know but it was comforting to me. Thank you. 
 The night sky is upon us. The sun has already set for the night. The sky is looking to be clear. Maybe just maybe Mom will see the stars shining in the sky along with the moon. I will be looking later on so be listening for my voice while I am whispering to you like I do every night. I hope that your night is all that you need & want it to be. May you do so many wonderful things wherever you may be going. Slow down though & close those beautiful eyes of yours. Get some sleep & Mom wishes you the sweetest of dreams. Come be with Mom in my own dreams tonight when I lay down to go to sleep. Thank you. 
 Mom will be posting a picture tonight of the sky that my sweet friend took. If anyone enlarges it in the lower left corner it looks like an Angel bending over in the clouds. I saw it & was amazed at it. He said he took it for Mom & was thinking of you & I. I told him that was so sweet but I think it was for him & validation to him that his Mom is always by his side. He lost his Mom when he was 17. That must have been so tough. I can't even imagine at all the pain that he has had to endure all these years. He is such a wonderful man. We have become such close friends. He is Mom's best male friend. He always is the one telling me to tell you that he says hello & he thinks of you often. I know that makes you smile that smile Mom misses so much. I know it touches your heart as it does mine. When you see his Mom ( her name is Judy ) tell her to go be with her son. He needs his Momma as I need my son all the time. Thanks Tyler. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my Wind Beneath My Wings & my true Hero. Remember that for all time.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Mom will be switching things up on your blog...new songs, new pictures in the next couple days so I hope you like the change. Love you pumpkin xoxoxo.