Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom has had a pretty good day & very productive. I was able to talk to a couple friends on the phone, take the dogs for a walk, & also was able to do some housework & laundry. Now I am doing the thing I love the most & that is writing to you my sweet precious son. I always feel closer to you when I am writing my letter to you. Mom has been doing this blog & writing to you for almost 3 years now. It doesn't seem possible that we are coming up to 3 years of you being gone. It seems to Mom that it was yesterday that I lost you forever. Time does not make it easier at all. It sucks, Tyler. I know that you are in a better place, I know that you are no longer in pain, that you can walk, run, breathe on your own now but Mom wants to be selfish, she wants you back. I want to see you, hear you, take care of you again. If I was given the chance I would not hesitate & I would do it in a heart beat. You were my everything. You were my life. My love for you is, was & always will be unconditional. Please forgive Mom for wanting to be selfish. You know that is not usually me or my style. I will promise to do my best & not try to think this way for you. I want you to be by my side, watch over Mom & be proud of what you see. I love you so much, Ty. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you so much. I miss you like crazy.
 Mom was thinking that she would have some updates for you tonight but I am afraid that I do not. I did speak to Aunt Beck today. They were getting ready to go to a wedding out of town this weekend. They take off again to South America next Wednesday, March 2nd. She was saying that they decided to not stay in South America for as long as they were going to because of the Easter Holiday. They now will be gone for 2 weeks & then be home. After they get back we are going to set a time for them to come here for a visit. I can't wait as I have not seen them in so long. I miss our family. I hate being this close but never seeing anyone. Its like the saying says.... so close but yet so far. We plan on going to their house as well soon too. A friend of Mom's just had a biopsy a few days ago & got the results back. It came back malignant & that crushed me. I hurt for her. It is the same cancer that she was diagnosed with 5 years ago. Mom will be with her every step of the way. I won't let her go through this alone. You know Mom. This is one of my passions & that is to give HOPE to all that need it. If you can help out in anyway I would appreciate it. Thank you! Mom has another friend that lost their job the other day. The way it happened was not right & I don't believe that the employer was correct. I spoke to my friend & his wife last night. I will also be there for them as well. We don't live close by but Mom will do all that I can for them. I care a lot. They are special to me too. If you can watch over them as well I know they would appreciate it & so would Mom. I know you can do amazing things where you are & Mom is so proud of knowing this. I know you will do all that you can to help all our family& friends & even strangers that you didn't or don't know. Mom will never take anything for granted. Never have & never will. You can count on that. Hopefully Mom will have more updates for you over the weekend.
 I do have a couple daily prayers to write out to you so here they are. February 25~ Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul & health to the bones. The best medicine for a discouraged spirit is a dose of love. Add a touch of support from friends & family, mix with a pinch of awareness of God's presence & spread your entire heart & soul. Wait ten seconds, then smile. Nothing can withstand such a powerful healing balm. Amen.
 February 26~ But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you & pray for them which desperately use you & persecute you. Heavenly Father, give us the forgiving spirit we so badly need to heal the wounds of the past. Help us live " the better life " by making peace with our enemies & understanding that they, too, need your love. Amen.
 Mom is all caught up. I am sorry that I didn't have the energy to write it to you last night. Mom was just so tired. I slept from 10 pm to 7 am & only woke up 2 times but fell right back to sleep. I needed it. I am doing better tonight but know that I will go to bed early because I have things to do tomorrow.
 Hope that you have a restful night. Mom hopes that it is all that you need  want it to be. The evening sky is set for the night & the sky still looks pretty clear so I am hoping that I will see the stars & moon shining bright. Regardless, Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear it & I will smile when I talk. Give Max & Snickers a hug & kiss for Mom. I miss y'all so much pumpkin. Sweet dreams tonight & come see me in my dreams when I fall asleep. Continue to fly high & fly free. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!