Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this last day of February? It is a leap year so that means it has 29 days instead of 28 days. It happens every 4 years. Do you remember that? I know where you are there is no concept of time. I guess in a way that is a good thing. I know it has been almost 3 years since Mom has seen you but in your world it is only seconds. I would rather have it be harder for Mom than the other way around. I would never want you to have to have more pain then what you did on a daily basis. I would rather take this pain as I couldn't take your pain when you were here with me. That killed me every day knowing I was your mom & I was not able to do anything to make you better. I did all that I could do. I just hope in your beautiful eyes that I did enough to make you proud. I miss you my sweet precious son. I miss you every second of every minute of every hour of every day. I love you like crazy. My love for you is unconditional. That is one of the many things you taught Mom. Your love was so innocent & unconditional as well to me & to all your family & friends. As your sweet friend Sam ( Sam I am ) would say... you were her " Tye Dye " every spectrum of every color in the rainbow. I love that. I love that description of you. It just warms my heart to no end. It means the world to me that family & friends talk about you to Mom. Some say to say " Hi " to you, some say they thought about you, some say they " felt " you visiting them. I love hearing it all. Don't ever stop Tyler. Please don't ever stop as that also makes me feel so close to you. I will always need you. Every day I need you near Mom. Thank you. 

 The weather today was absolutely beautiful. It was blue skies & sunny out. It was 64 degrees. It was the weather that we loved. Not too hot & not too cold. It would be the days that we could do so much. Remember the long walks we would take? We would just go & talk for hours about anything & everything. We would catch up on all that we needed to. Gosh, my heart aches for those times back with you. Mom has such a broken heart. It will never be mended. My heart went with you the day you left. You have it now Tyler. Please take care of it for me. ( I know you will! ) Mom is hoping that the sky is clear enough so that I will be able to see the stars & the moon shining bright. I just sneaked a peek to see & the sky has a few stars in it. One star is really bright. It is big & beautiful. I know that one is you shining for Mom to see. I will look later again & i will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile when you hear it & I will try to smile for you as well or at least through the tears. 

 Spoke to Meme & grandpa tonight. All seems to be well with them. At least the best to be expected. They were happy to hear that I will be up in NH at Easter time for a couple days. Haven't been there in 3 months so it is time to go back to visit. I miss them as much as I know that they miss Mom. Aunt Beck takes off in a couple days. I know you will be with them as they travel. Please continue to be with Mom & us all as I know you are each & every day. Tomorrow is March 1st.....It would be Nana's Birthday & also Meme & Bob's wedding anniversary. It is also the day that Mom will be starting her studying for her exam. I couldn't think of a better day to start things off. Wish me luck Tyler....Mom will be needing it....lol. 

 Well, my daily prayer book doesn't have a prayer for the 29th of February so I did find another one that I will write for today. Here it is:

 Let love & faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Amen.

 Three things will last forever----Faith, Hope, & Love---& the greatest of these is love. Amen.

 Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good. Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love. Amen.

 Mom is going to close her letter to you for the night. I hope that you have a restful evening doing what you need to do, what you want to do & what you love to do as well. If you get the chance please stop for a bit & get some sleep. Sweet dreams my precious son. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight as well. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & Mom's wind beneath my wings. Good night. I love you.

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!