Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is again so sorry that I didn't write to you but as you could see last night I was taking my exam until 9:30 pm & then after that I did dinner dishes, spoke to Grandpa really quick because he called like 3 times while I was taking my exam & then I went to bed. I couldn't even keep my eyes open at all. I did write to you on your facebook wall. Just a quick hello to tell you I was thinking about you & that I loved & missed you. Today has been a day like yesterday but at least I got my exam done at a descent time. I thought I would do better than what I did but I at least passed the dang thing. I will be taking tomorrow off as I have an appointment in the early afternoon to go to. I think I need the break as my brain is on overload. Mom is looking forward to Saturday as I will be going to NH to see some family & friends. I will also be going there to visit with you at your resting place. I can't believe that in 6 days it will be 3 years since I lost you. My heart is still crushed daily by this & Mom knows it will never mend. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Never forget that, Tyler...please.
 The evening sky will be getting dark in the next hour or so. The sky is still clear so I am hoping to see the stars & the moon shining bright. Either way I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for Mom's voice. Smile when you hear me & I will smile as I whisper to you. Mom hopes that your night is all that you are needing & wanting it to be. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you get the chance. I love when you do. Thanks pumpkin!
 I have no updates for you at all still as I really haven't spoken to anyone in these last 2 days/nights. Mom's nose is always stuck in a book & studying all day & then at night I relax & then go to bed. I know it will pay off in the end & I look forward to that day. What you told Aunt Beck is still staying with Mom. I hear it in my mind all the time & it means so much to me. Thank you thank you thank you.
 Here are the daily prayers I need to get caught up on for you. June 13~ O send out your light & your truth; let them lead me; let them bring me to your holy hill & to your dwelling. Lead me, dear Lord. I need your light shining on the road ahead of me. Life is complicated these days & I don't know where to turn. Illuminate the options for me. Let me see which path to take. I need your truth ringing in my ears. So many voices these days woo this way or that way, I don't know whom to believe. Except you. I trust your Word & I trust you to guide me through my current straits. The Lord went in front of them in a pillar of cloud by day, to lead them along the way & in a pillar of fire by night, to give them light, so that they might travel by day & by night. Amen.
 June 14~ May he grant you your hearts desire & fulfill all your plans. May we shout for joy over your victory & in the name of our God set up our banners. I pray today for those stepping out into new ventures, especially those who are seeking new ways to serve you. Go with them, Lord. Guide them in the planning process & grant them success. Encourage them when things don't work out at first, and help them keep their heads when they encounter the first flush of success. Along with the psalmist, I want to  " shout to joy " and wave flags to celebrate their victory. Please, Lord, honor the desires of your servants to serve you more effectively. He brought me to the banqueting house, and his banner over me was love. Amen.
 All caught up once again. Mom is going to go for now as my eyes are heavy & tired from looking at a computer screen all day. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Ty. Sweet dreams. Until tomorrow night.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!