Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is doing the best she can right now. I have had an emotional day as you could see. Mom had a conversation through a message that was just awful. There were many things that were said that were hurtful. I just had a very hard time with it & I shed many of tears thinking back all day to what was said to Mom. I am pretty drained by it & to be honest I am pretty numb. I am feeling nothing. I have always been the person to do my best at everything I do but I guess this time I failed. I have also always been honest. People may not like what I say to them but I won't lie. They can dislike me but one thing they have to do is give me the respect that I deserve for being truthful no matter what. Sometimes the truth hurts & it is painful. It will take some time getting over but I will one of these days. Well enough about that....
 The weather today was sure a hot one....it was almost 90 degrees & the sun was just a shining. The skies were blue & no clouds were out. Mom is hoping that I will get to see the stars & the moon shining bright tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Mom will make sure to find a smile for you so you can see. I love you with all my heart & soul. You are everything to Mom. I miss you like crazy, Tyler. Every day is harder & harder for me instead of it becoming easier & easier to deal with. I am not sure what to do about that but all I know is that I will keep moving forward & hope I make you proud.
 Mom spoke to Grandpa last night. All is well with him & Debbie. They are just working a lot & dealing with this thing we call life. Meme & Bob are doing well too. I did not get the chance to chat with Aunt Beck though. I will try my best before the weekend is done. Everyone else in our family is doing well. Some are on vacation in Florida & some are just going about there every day lives. I try to keep in touch with them on a weekly basis. Time just goes by so fast & sometimes I loose track of everything. Mom will definitely have more time after tomorrow as I will be finished my course. I can't believe that it is finally coming to an end! I can't wait. It has been trying most of the time but with you, family & friends by my side I have managed to get through it. Thank you so much my sweet precious son.
 Before I finish up for the night...here is the daily prayer for tonight. June 30~ Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am languishing; O Lord, heal me, for my bones are shaking with terror. Terror has been all over the news in recent years, supreme Lord and I admit it affects me too. I find myself worrying about this world but I am especially anxious about the well-being of my loved ones. It's not just terrorism, Lord but health care, finances & aging. What's ahead for us? What will the future bring? Grace. Healing. Your loving touch. Thank you, Lord for the surety of your active presence. Worries are like the raging sea. Let the Lord calm the waters around you. Amen.
 It is that time of the night were Mom needs to get going to make dinner & do all the nightly things that need to get done. I hope that you have a night where you get to do all the things you need to & want to. Come visit Mom tonight in my dreams. I hope I sleep better than I did last night though. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. I love you more than words can say. To infinity & beyond.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!