Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom is sorry that I did not write to you but I did it for a few reasons. The day was not all that great & it seemed to be one thing after another with disappointments plus the date June 10 is not a good one for Mom so I did not think it was wise of me to write anything at all. Just because I didn't write to you does not mean I was not thinking about you because that is the furthest from the truth. I thought about you all day & the memories of 23 years ago kept flashing in my mind. I remember it all as it was yesterday. That day changed our lives forever....especially yours my sweet precious son. June 10th is one of a couple days that will haunt Mom forever. Last night I sat out on the balcony for quite some time & I just thought about you & how much we went through together. I smiled some & shed several tears. I was so happy to see that the stars were out & shining bright. I whispered several times to you, did you hear Mom's voice? If so did you smile? I sure do hope so. I know I smiled when I whispered to you & I will do it again tonight as well. Be listening out for my voice. Make sure to smile that big smile I loved so much & now miss. 
 Today was a busy day for Mom in the morning & early afternoon. I got up, got the pups set, got ready, did laundry & then headed out to do grocery shopping. Got home & put everything away & then got on my computer & played around. Mark has been playing his online game since 4 pm so I chatted on the phone with a friend of mine, Grandpa & Meme. Everyone is doing well there. Aunt Beck called me yesterday to check in on me. It was nice to catch up on things. Please watch over them as Tuesday, I believe, John will be going to DHMC yet again to get some testing done on his knees again. I know that this is worrying them so anything you can do would be greatly appreciated. Thanks Ty. Grandpa let me know that Grammy is ill again. She has pneumonia once again. This is her 3rd time in less than 6 months. You know just as well as I do that that is not a good thing or a good sign. Mom will be in NH next weekend so I will be stopping in to see her while I am there. Please watch over her as well. Thanks again. Mark did call his dad the other day & the doctors did confirm that he indeed did have a stroke on Sunday. He will be going through a bunch of tests this week to see what is going on there. Mom has had a couple of her dreams & not so great intuitions on this. Looks like we will be making a trip to Ohio in the next few weeks. I will keep you posted on that as well. No more updates as of right now. That is all I have for you. I am sure I will have more in the coming days.
 Here are the daily prayers that I need to catch you up on. June 10~ Happy are those whom you choose & bring near to live in your courts. We shall be satisfied with the goodness of your house, your holy temple. My Lord, I thank you for those people who have devoted their lives to ministry: preachers & teachers & nursery workers, administrators & musicians & janitors. Their unselfish service has truly enriched my life & I know you are ultimately the source of their service, having inspired them to do what they do. Today I pray for them. Empower them to do their work with joy & efficiency. Help them get past all fatigue & discouragement to keep at it. Continue to awaken your love within them for the people they serve. Do you know that you are God's temple & that God's Spirit dwells in you? Amen.
 June 11~ Why should I fear in times of trouble, when the iniquity of my persecutors surrounds me, those who trust in their wealth & boast of the abundance of their riches? How easily I get swept into the love of money! Lord, I know that you are all I need. I'd rather have you than all the wealth on earth, but lately I've been worrying about financial matters. All over the news media, I hear the voices of those who trust in their riches & I'm tempted to join them, to want more & to fear having less. But then I hear your gentle wooing. You are truly enough for me, dear Lord. I need not fret. I can trust you to provide. Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food & the body more than clothing?....But strive first for the kingdom of God & his righteousness & all these things will be given to you as well. Amen.
 The night sky has been upon us for some time now. I don't see anything shining in the sky but I know you are shining bright for others to see that need it more. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all the things you need to do & want to do. May you fly high & free no matter where you go. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. I will be waiting for you. I miss you so much & I love you to infinity & back. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams. Until tomorrow night......
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS Hope you enjoy the picture that my sweet friend took of the sunset. I think it is beautiful & I know you will too. Just wanted to share it with you. Love you, pumpkin xoxoxo.