Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is doing the best that can be. The last couple days have been pretty early mornings & late nights for me with my studies. I have 4 chapters left & I have 2 weeks to complete them all. They have left the longest & hardest for the end. It is tough & challenging but I will make it through. I know you are right by my side. Thank you for that. It is because of you that I am doing this. It is so that all the medical knowledge that I got over 20 years while caring for you does not go to waste. Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but as I said above I was doing my studies until late & then I needed to just relax & unwind. I needed to get away from the computer & just do nothing. Mom will try to be better about writing something each day as I know several family, friends & folks that I don't even know around the world read my letters to you each & every night. It still amazes me that after 3 years of writing to you on here Mom has so many followers. In the US alone it varies between 120 - 170 people & then various ones all over the world....right now it is Portugal, France, Russia, & a couple more. I hope that I have continued followers throughout this journey I am on with my letters to you. I know it has helped me a great deal with the grieving process so Mom can only hope that I am helping others in their personal process of grief if they have lost precious loved ones. I do want to just take a minute, Tyler & thank everyone who does read my blog. It means the world to me as I share my personal experiences with all. Sometimes my letters are more serious than others & at times they are funnier or less sentimental. It just depends on the day that I am having when I am writing to you. I wish each of you love & light every day. Many blessings to you all as well.
 Mom doesn't really have any updates for you as I haven't spoken to anyone really. I heard from Meme & Grandpa & all is well with them. Mark's dad will be going through a series of tests to see just what is going on with him & the stroke that he had 3 weeks ago. My sweet friend that I talk to you about quite often did not get the best news today. He was hoping to get the new job that he applied for but for some reason it didn't work out. He got the call today. He was bummed & rightfully so. I know he will read this letter either tonight or tomorrow & I just want him to know that he is not a failure even if he thinks he is. He is a great guy that I hold very dear to my heart. That door did not open for a reason & I know that another will in God's time...not his. If you can do me a favor & go give him a hug & have him know it is from Mom that would be wonderful. I would do it but we live several hundred miles away. Thank you. 
 Mom has 3 daily prayers to catch up on so I better start them. Here they are. June 21~ As far as the East is from the West, so far he removes our transgressions from us. Most Holy God, I am amazed by your capacity for forgiveness. We both know that I have wronged you. I come before you as a sinner, depending on your mercy. Thankfully, you life me up & treat me as a friend. My transgressions are gone, completely discarded in the other direction. You hold no grudge. You have wiped the slate clean, allowing us to move forward in our relationship. Thank you, my dear, dear Lord. And please give me that same ability to forgive, because I can't do it on my own. When others offend me, help me forgive them with an open heart. God made you alive together with { Christ } when he forgave us all our trespasses, erasing the record that stood against us with it's legal demands. He set this aside, nailing it to the cross. Amen.
 June 22~ Do not be far from me, for trouble is near & there is no one to help. We beseech thee, Master, to be our helper & protector. Save the afflicted among us; have mercy on the lowly; raise up the fallen; appear to the needy; heal the ungodly; restore the wanderers of thy people; feed the hungry; ransom our prisoners; raise up the sick; comfort the faint-hearted. Remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age. Amen.
 June 23~ I wash my hands in innocence & go around your altar, O Lord, singing aloud a song of thanksgiving & telling all your wondrous deeds. My Lord, it is a great feeling to bask in your presence. There have been times when I have come to you wrecked with guilt or weighed down with worry but you have assured me that my sin is forgiven & that you will care for me. So the burden is off my back. I am free & clear. I feel like singing. I lift up my soul to worship you in a wholehearted expression of praise & love and I will share your greatness with anyone who will listen. You are an awesome God! These verses from Psalm 26 obviously refer to a range of worship activities, possibly by priests or Levites--- the ritual washing, the offering of sacrifices & singing & proclaiming. We can all understand the joy of entering worship with a pure heart & declaring our love for the Lord. Amen
 Mom is all caught up finally. The evening sky will be upon us in just an hour or so. The last few nights the sunsets have just been so beautiful. I have been taking pictures so I will make sure to share them with you. I know you will like them as you were just like Mom....love sunsets! I hope that your evening will be filled with all things that you need & want to do. May you have the chance to come visit Mom in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep. I would love that. I will whisper to you tonight when I look to the skies above. I hope to see the moon & stars shining bright but if not that is ok. I know you are shining bright for someone who needs it. I miss you my sweet precious son. I love you with all that I have. To the moon & back & all the way around the would. To infinity & beyond. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You will always be my true hero & Mom's wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS I have not forgotten to post the videos of your balloon release yet. I have Aunt Mary"s, Mom's friend Gary's & the one that we did in NH. I just need the time to edit mine. Hopefully this weekend I will do it. Sorry for the delay. Be patience with Mom....thanks pumpkin xoxoxo.