Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing better than I have been in the last week or so. Today was a very good day for me & I have you to thank for that! Last night Aunt Beck called me & told me about your encounter with her about a week or so ago when she was taking a hike. She told me that you wanted to give me a message & that was not to give up. You have been seeing me struggle & you told her to tell me to keep going. That meant everything to Mom, Tyler. It validates that you do see everything that is going on with Mom & everyone. Aunt Beck also told me that she asked " where have you been lately " & you told her you are always here...we just can't see you all the time because if we could we would always want to & that just can't happen. It totally makes sense to Mom. It really does. If I had the opportunity to see you always that is exactly hat I would want to do & I know you have things that you need to do & you would always feel obligated to be with Mom. Plus Mom has to continue to live as hard as that may be sometimes. It is these little messages or signs that Mom needs to keep her going. Please continue with them as they help me out so much. I know you already know that they do though. Mom was also told that you walk in the woods every once in awhile because you couldn't when you were here in the physical world. That doesn't surprise me at all. It was so nice to here. Aunt Beck said that you were tall....just like your Dad. That made Mom smile. I told Meme about your encounter as well & she said that she would really love to see you. If you can make that happen please go see her. She would really love that so much & Mom would love hearing about it. Again, thank you so much for those messages. You know just what I need to make things better. I slept well last night & my day has been pretty good so far. It has been busy but productive. Started out early...got ready, took pups for a walk, took my exam ( which I got a 98 on! Brought my GPA up to an 82 now so that made me super happy! ) started on the next chapter...listened to the lecture, read the chapter, did the review summary questions. Tomorrow will be doing the online activities & then the exam. Hope I do just as well as I did today. That would really make me happy to see my GPA go up even higher! I know that you will be with me no matter what & that is all that I can ask for. Big hugs & kisses to you my sweet precious son.
 I don't have any updates for you tonight but I do have the daily prayer. June 1~ You, O Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, and the one who lifts up my heart. Dear Lord, I thank you for these three wonderful things you do for me. First, you shield me from harm. That's not to say that I'm immune from the ups & downs of life, but you keep the downs from destroying me. And I shudder to think what my life would be like without you. Second, you provide " glory "----not that I get to glorify myself, but through you I connect with your amazing & eternal resplendence. Finally, you " lift up my head. " When I'm in the doldrums, you come to me with exceeding joy. Thank you for these remarkable gifts. I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory about to be revealed to us. Amen.
 The evening sky will be upon us in about an hour. The sunset last night was amazing. It was so pretty. I smiled as I saw it. Did you see my smile? I whispered to you...did you hear Mom's voice? I sure hope so. I will do it again tonight as well so be listening out for it. Hope I get to see the stars & moon shining bright. Smile when you hear Mom so I can imagine that smile that I love & miss so very much in my head. 
 Hope that your evening is all that you want it to be & what you need it to be. I am sure you will be busy with lots of things if I know you. Relax for a bit if you can though. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you have time. I would really like that so much. I miss you so much. More than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my everything still...forever you will be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!