Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing the best she can. Honestly, I am pretty tired today as I was up a lot last night. Hopefully tonight I will get the much needed rest that I am needing. Mom decided to write to you now as I will have to study later & when I am done with that I am pretty tired like I was last night. Hopefully I will be done this class pretty soon. It is really getting to me and I am sure that you can see that when I am in my office trying my hardest to do this stuff. Thank you for being by my side in all this chaos. This is a tough one for Mom but I will take the grade that I get because I know I gave it my all in everything that I have done thus far. If I pass the course I will be grateful but if I fail then I will have to accept it & just move on. Either way I will be glad when this class is over with...lol!
 Not much new for today. Claremont's Relay For Life is this weekend. Remember going with Mom to them? I loved it when you did the Survivor walk with me. That was very special. Mom will not be able to make it this year as Mark & I will be there next weekend for 4 days. I hope they have a good turn out as it has been touch & go for the last couple of years. They are doing things much different this year though. It is inside instead of outside. It is being held at the new Community Center near the Middle School in Claremont. You can walk the track, swim, weight lift, run or a few other things. It will take place in several rooms. Sounds fun. Mom will go to the one here in Quincy again, like I did last year. Wish you were here with Mom to share it still but I know you are in your own way. Thank you! Mom will chat with Grandpa & Meme tonight & get some updates for you. I will also put a call in to Aunt Beck to see how she is doing. Mom saw that Megan posted that Ashley ( Bianca's oldest daughter...remember her? ) had her baby this morning. She had a little boy. I congratulated her along with the whole family. I always liked Ashley. She is a sweet girl. That's all I have for updates for you today.
 Here are a couple of the back daily prayers for you. April 23~ Then I acknowledged my sin to you & I did not hide my iniquity; I said " I will confess my transgressions to the Lord. " and you forgave the guilt of my sins. I am a sinner. You & I both know that, Lord. There are all sorts of self-help books that wouldn't want me to say that. I'm " misunderstood " or " guilt-afflicted " or  " not living up to my potential. " But the simple truth is this: I've done wrong. In my thoughts & deeds, in my actions & attitudes toward others, towards myself & towards you. I have disobeyed you & I'm sorry. But the story doesn't end there. You offer forgiveness for my sins, no matter how heinous they are. You restore my relationship with you. You wipe the slate clean. Thank you, beloved Lord. I bless you from the depths of my renewed heart. To err is human, to forgive divine. Amen.
 April 24~ For you have delivered my soul from death & my feet from falling, so that I may walk before God in the light of life. Now let the angelic choir in the heavens rejoice, Let the divine mysteries be celebrated & let a sacred trumpet proclaim the victory of such a great King. Let the earth also be filled with joy, illuminated with such resplendent rays & let everyone know that the darkness which overspread the whole world is chased away by the splendor of our eternal King. So if you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Amen.
 April 25~ He covers the heavens with clouds, prepares rain for the earth, males grass grow on the hills. My Creator, the more I know about creation, the more I want to praise you. You have made a universe that flows together in a beautiful way. The sun heats the earth, creating water vapor that forms clouds & returns to earth in the form of rain, which makes the grass grow, which feeds the animals & so on. It is a beautiful pattern---one that reflects your wisdom, power, & love. I hope I never again complain about the rain, because it's all part of the intricate design you have put in place. Ever since the creation of the world his eternal power & divine nature, invisible though they are, have been understood & seen through the things he has made. Amen.
 May 3~ I have not hidden your saving help within my heart, I have spoken of your faithfulness & your salvation; I have not concealed your steadfast love & your faithfulness. Dear Lord, when I sense that you are opening an opportunity for me to talk to someone about you---whether it's a word about your saving grace, your faithfulness or your constant love---help me to not be afraid to speak up. Help me treat those to whom I'm speaking with gentleness & respect as I dialogue about faith in you. And for those who are looking for you, may my words help them find you. We can enjoy talking about our faith if we relax & simply tell our own story of how God has loved us so deeply & devotedly. Amen.
 Mom did it... she has caught up on all the daily prayers that I have missed & stayed current with the prayer of the day! Phew.... glad that is done! Before Mom writes the daily Inner Peace card..... I wanted to tell you that I just got off the phone with Aunt Beck. She gave me a call. It was so nice to hear her voice. She & John had a nice cross country road trip. They are all safe & sound & enjoying Spring in Vermont now. She did however call to tell me some not so great news. I promised I would not write about it on here as it is private to Bean. Mom is just asking that you are with her during this time. Thank you my sweet precious son. It means a lot to us all.
 Now...here is the Inner Peace card for today: What other people think of me is none of my business. One of the highest places you can get to is to be independent of the good opinions of other people. Such a great card. So true..... there are so many other things to think about & deal with day to day & what others think of you should not be one of them. Not everyone in this world is going to like you & that is ok. Just wish them well & move on! No need to dwell on things that you can't change. Life is too precious & short for that kind of stuff!
 Well, Tyler.... Mom really needs to get to studying as it is now 3 pm.... I have a couple of hours ahead of me. Hope that your evening will be all that you want & need it to be. Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Thank you. I will whisper to you as I always do later this evening so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & hope you will too. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. Always feel that & never let it go. I will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then.... good night & sweet dreams. Come visit me tonight if you can.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!