Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom has had quite the day. Last night I had to call the police on the renters next door again. They were yelling and screaming from 5:45 pm until ( pm when the rain started and then after the rain stopped from 10 pm until 2 am. To say the least, Mom did not get a lot of sleep at all. I have called the police on these renters 3 times in the last 4 days. They just don't seem to care or have any respect. I put a call out to the property manager and she basically blew me off. Said that I had to email her. I did just that and I told her exactly how I feel. I will be forwarding this information to the management company as well. Something needs to be done here. It is not okay to do what they are doing. They were in the pool all day today as well. Mom tried sitting outside to relax and enjoy the sunshine and I couldn't. They were so loud and obnoxious not to mention that they were giving me dirty looks the whole time I was out there. I told them to keep doing it because it did not intimidate me in the least. If they pull the same crap tonight I will call again and this time they will get a citation. I took the pups for an afternoon walk and you could here them 5 houses down yelling and screaming in the pool. That is not acceptable behavior. Mark and Mom can be in the pool and have music playing and you can't even hear it next door or even in the house. We love it here in Florida but we are sorry we moved to this place. We are not the only ones who feel this way. Other full timers we have spoken to feel the way we do too. So sad.
 Anyways.... with not getting all that much sleep, Mom was up at 6 am. The pups were wide awake then. I managed to stay in bed until 6:30 am and that was it. Pups were fed, walked and sleeping all before 7:20 am. Mom made coffee, breakfast, ate, cleaned up and then made the bed, showered and started her day all before 9:30 am. Meme and Bob had appointments so they were gone for a couple hours I think. Mark is on day 4 of the course. Today and tomorrow is working on the exam piece to see if he passes so that he is invited to take the certification exam. He worked right through dinner again last night. Mom made him dinner and brought it up to him. He didn't have the time to eat with me or help with the pups but he found the time to chat with his brother for over 30 minutes and have a couple beers before shutting things down at 9 pm. Mom was a bit angry about that. I have been busting my butt to make sure that everything is quiet, taking care of the pups by myself, bringing food and drinks to Mark, eating dinner alone, being alone the entire evening until he climbs into bed to fall asleep and that is the level of respect I get... it was hurtful but I said nothing. I was quiet all night and this morning. He came in to ask what was wrong but I just said I wasn't in a good mood...very true because I wasn't. He didn't even care to acknowledge what he did. he would say that he hasn't spoken to his brother in 2 weeks which is correct but my point is that if he had time to make for that then he could have made time to eat the dinner I prepared for him. Things were going really well last week and this week things have slipped back to the old ways. he doesn't want to help me out when he can, he is focused on himself and nothing else and when things go wrong and Mom has to handle it, I fill him in and he gets mad at me and says that I didn't handle it correctly. I can't win at all. I really can't. He won't do anything about certain things and I can't do anything right in his eyes. I had a feeling that this would happen. I knew somehow that last week was too good to be true. Mom is trying so hard and I shouldn't have to try this hard at all. It should just come naturally but it is not. I don't know what else to do. Ugh... it is so frustrating. I wish you were here. I wish we could talk. You always made things better for me. I miss your voice, Tyler. I miss your advice. You were wise beyond your years. 
 Today is not a day I care to remember at all. These next few days will be the toughest for Mom. I will be emotional and edgy so I will be staying clear of everyone. Today is June 18th. It is the day that we had our last conversation ever. I remember exactly where I was, what I was doing when that all took place. I remember the conversation and ending it with telling you that I would talk to you in the morning. That morning came but we never spoke. I never heard your voice again. The last words you said to me the night before was that you loved and missed me. I told you the same. In ways, I am glad that those were the last words spoken between us because if they weren't I would be worse off then I am almost 7 years later. My heart is broken and has been since you left this world. I miss you so damn much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Bare with Mom during this next couple of days, especially Saturday...the anniversary of your passing. Mom will get through it but they are always the toughest days for me besides your Birthday and Holidays. Give Mom some extra signs along the way if you can. Come visit me in my dreams at night so that I can hear your voice and see your face that I miss so much. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom hopes that you have fun while I try and get some sleep tonight. I will light your candle and whisper to you before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to the heavens to you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter. Right now it is that time of night where I need to get things going for dinner, feed the pups and then take them for their walk. Mark will be working on his test until 9 pm or later so Mom is going to crawl into bed in a bit and just watch a movie before falling asleep. Hopefully the neighbors will not be loud. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams pumpkin. Please continue to watch over us as the Covid 19 outbreak is getting bad here again. Keep Mom and all of us safe from it. Keep us healthy. Love you and thank you so much.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤