Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but it was a busy day here. Mom wanted to write to you briefly to let you know that I am okay. There are many things here that are still of the unknown but tomorrow afternoon will give us all those answers that are in limbo right now. Mom won't go into any detail on here but I will talk to you tonight in hopes that you may be able to help in some way. 
 The weather is nasty here again. It is dark, raining and we are in for a really bad thunderstorm from 5 pm to 8 pm tonight. Not cool. So sick of this weather. It is week 3 for this. Not sure the sunshine state will ever see the sun...ugh! If Mom has to cut this letter short it is because of the storm.
 Yesterday Sam went to see you. She sent me pictures. I see that Aunt Shirley and her friends did a flower arrangement for you. It looks very pretty. It made me smile. I know that Grandpa and Debbie have been there as well. Mom wishes that I could visit and sit on your bench but I know I don't have to be there to talk to you, I can do that anywhere. This morning when Mom was walking the pups, I saw 2 Cardinals...a male and female one. I watched them for a few minutes. I wondered if that was you???? I would like to think so as there has been a Cardinal hanging around for a few weeks now. If it is you, then thank you my sweet precious son. 
 Things here are somewhat quiet. Mark has been working long hours the last 3 days and he is not feeling well. I sure hope it is because he is fatigued and nothing else as he has told me he has a fever and flu like symptoms. That is not cool. I wouldn't think much of it if the times were not the way they are but I am just hoping it has nothing to do with Covid. Please be with him so he can feel better. Thank you. Meme has had a rough day today. Just not in a good mood. Snappy at everything and everyone...aka...me and Bob. Bob walked away from her and Mom is just blowing it off. I have other things to think about and deal with at this time then to add her behavior to the list.  
 It is so dark here right now and the lightning is bright and the thunder is loud. Ozzy is doing okay with it but Princess is a different story. Mark is soaking in a warm bath and Meme and Bob are having dinner. When I am done, I will feed the pups and then get dinner for myself. I have not been eating all that much or well the last few days. I need to stop this and get back on track!
 Today has been a rough day for Mom. It is June 10th... 26 years ago on this day is when you got sick. The nightmare started this very same day. It has always been a rough one for me. This day changed your life and Mom and Dads. I don't know if Dad remembers this is the day but I sure do. It is etched in my brain forever. Mom is so sorry that you went through all that you did in this world. I tried to do right and protect you the best way I knew how. I can only hope I did well in your eyes. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. 
 The storm is getting pretty bad, Ty. Mom is going to stop this letter and shut everything down. I will light your candle in a bit and I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit if you can. Please continue to watch over us. Keep us safe and healthy. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤

PS. I found these song lyrics....hope you like them!

A Song for you Tyler Howard 

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BEAUTIFUL

Sometimes in the silence

I can hear you sing

And feel your loving presence

Ever near

There's something strong between us

Like a force that I can't see

A bridge connecting us

Invisibly

I know that you are near me

Though we're far apart

I see your face before me

I know that you can hear me

When I'm calling from my heart

I know that you are always there

Sometimes I think that you must be

An Angel passing through

There was never anyone

As beautiful as you

I know that you are with me

In everything I do

And follow every footstep

Of my way

You are my guardian Angel

And will forever be

The one who's always walking

Close to me

I miss you in the moonlight

And in the morning sun

I miss you every hour

of the day

There's never been a moon gone by

Without you on my mind

A part of you will always stay

Sometimes I think you must be

An Angel passing through

'Cause there was never anyone

As beautiful as you

Somehow I know that you must be

An Angel passing through

Oh there was never anyone

As beautiful as you

Seasons come and seasons go

But you will always be

More than beautiful to me

You're more than beautiful to me