Dear Tyler,

I am so sorry that I didnt get a chance to write to you last night. We are now in our apartment in Houston, Texas and we are dealing with the same issues as we did when we arrived in Oklahoma. Everything is a mess. I am sitting here with nothing to do. Just got the internet to work by my cell phone. We have no furniture again for any rooms so I am sitting on the wooden floor. I am just really tired. Didnt sleep much at all last night. Kinda hard when we dont have a bed either. Right now I am just unhappy with the move. It sucks. Nothing is in walking distance or close by at all. The weather is hotter than Oklahoma too. Traffic is unbearable. I never thought I would say this but I miss Oklahoma. I miss you, I miss our family and friends. I just miss home. Anyways....enough of my sob story. As you know, Monday would have been your 23rd Birthday. I cant get you anything so I have decided to honor you by having friends and family release a balloon with a message attached to it or just by saying it out loud when they release theirs. I know you loved balloons so I thought this was pretty special to do. I hope you like them. I hope you smile and laugh too. I want you to know just how much you were and still are loved!  I will have some people take pictures of the balloons going up to you so I can post them on here. I would love to see them all. You will be getting balloons sent from New Hampshire, Vermont, Massachusetts, Canada, Oklahoma, Texas, California, and I am sure a few other states too! I cant express to you how much you are loved. You taught so many people so many different things. You just never knew or thought you did anything special. Boy were you wrong! You were an Angel here on Earth and now a bigger one in Heaven. I love you so much Tyler. I miss you every second of every minute of every hour of every day. My life is just not the same. I hate this feeling of being lonely. I hate this void that I feel. It hurts and the pain is sometimes to hard to bare. A mothers love for her child or children is something no one can understand unless you are a Mom. You have a special connection and bond that is beyond words. It kills me because that was taken away from me too soon. I wasnt ready to stop being a Mom. It hurts like hell! I love you more than words can say. You are my everything still. Sweet dreams my precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!