Dear Tyler,

I hope that you had a great day today. Mark and I tried to chat with Jeremy but no luck. We havent been able to talk to him and we are getting alittle concerned on this. I know that you 2 were the best of friends and brothers so I feel that we need to make sure he is ok now that you are gone ( physically ). We all know you will watch over him...always! Aunt Shirley emailed me and told me that her & Richard went to visit you today. She cleaned up and removed the wilted flowers and put some silk flowers there. There are several colors and each one has a special meaning. It was so beautiful for what she said. It made me cry. I did something today as well. I decided for the time being I need to stay off facebook for a bit. I need to do some healing. I like seeing what my friends and family are doing and know that everyone is happy and healthy, but it is a constant reminder of what I have lost. What I will never have again. I need to heal and to do that I need to focus on myself. I need to make sure that I am eating, drinking, and getting enough sleep to get through these tough days. I know you understand. I know that you watch over me and everyone else. Please do me a favor.... go be with Dad. I received a text from him today and I am kinda concerned for him. He is not doing well. Worse than the time before we chatted. I hope to talk to him soon and see what is going on and what I can do to help him too. It is late here and I am tired but I wanted to make sure we had our talk tonight just like every night. I miss you my precious son. I love you with all my heart. Sweet dreams pumpkin. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!