Dear Tyler,

I cant believe hat 1 month has gone by when I received the phone call that shattered my life forever. Mark and I scrambled to get back home to you but the airlines wouldnt even work with us on it. I was so upset, discouraged, and heart broken. Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Aunt Becky & Brandy were there though. I am forever thankful to them. I didnt want you to be alone during the night so Meme & Aunt Becky stayed overnight and everyone else came back the next day. We, Dad included also arrived the next day. Thank you so much for hanging on as long as you did. I prayed that night and all through the flights that you would. So many others were praying for you as well. I am so sorry that you had to go through what you did before you passed. I wonder every day if you knew we were there, could you hear us, were you in any pain? These questions haunt me. I guess I wanted to hear you say you loved me 1 last time. I wanted to see you smile and open your eyes. I wanted just 1 more conversation with you. This is so hard living without you. It hurts beyond words. I sometimes think I am in a nightmare and I will wake up and everything will be ok. Wishful thinking I guess. I do hope that you are happy. As I have said before that is all I wanted for you. Still do. Please know that I am having a rough time but I am strong and will make it through. I plan on going to a grieving support group when we get settled in Texas. I think that will help me. Yes.... thats right... I have decided to go with Mark to Texas and try. I love him and want to be with him. I miss our family and friends but I will go visit from time to time and hopefully they will visit too! I love you with all my heart, Tyler. I miss you so much. Sweet dreams. Love you to the moon and back. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!