Dear Tyler,

There is so much I want to tell you pumpkin. I wish Heaven had a phone so I could call you every night and day. I miss you so much. The world just keeps going and everyone for the most part are happy and for me... the world is just turning. I smile and laugh some, but not like I used to. I dont know if I will ever be that person again. I like to think I am trying my hardest. Somedays I would agree and other days not so much. Mark and I are doing ok in Houston. Starting to get to know the area alittle. Did alittle shopping for the new apartment. I said to myself the other day I wish that you could see it, but I know you can. I know you are watching over us. I remember our conversation. I remember you telling me that when it was your time to return to Heaven, you would watch over me every day and you would let me know you were around with giving me a sign. Some have said that you are a hawk, others have said you are flying in the sky watching over family. It makes me smile. I know you are flying high and free. That makes me happy. To be honest with you, I am alittle out of sorts today. I am lost. In 2 days it would have been your Birthday. Usually I am running around making sure things for your party were going ok and everything was all set and this year I cant do that. It makes me so sad. I cant help but feel lost. Please know I am trying. I am doing my best. Every day doesnt get easier, but I manage. You were my world. You still are!  I love you all the way around the world and back. Sweet dreams my precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!