Dear Tyler,

Hello my sweet son! I hope you are having a good Sunday. Mom is still under the weather but each day is getting better I think. I am making sure I take my medicine and drinking a lot of water. I have the cough now and it really hurts. Anyways.... I am watching football again. Cowboys played the Chiefs... they lost by 1 point. Your boys played today too. Packers won and so did the Dolphins. Lucky day for you for football :). Mom is just relaxing and watching tv. Don't really feel like doing much of anything else. I just want to get rid of this cough and cold. I am hoping that this week I will be finished with it and can start doing the things I need to do. I am still waiting for our storage and things to get here. It has been in transit for the past 7 days. Don't know where it is at and when it will arrive. I am hoping soon. I really want my stuff. It will be nice seeing it again after 8 months in storage. Aunt Becky and Uncle John will be coming for a visit soon too. They will be here in less than 1 month. It will be so nice to see people that I know. I am really home sick. I am reading all about my friends and family back home enjoying the Fall weather and apple picking and baking. I miss it. I miss doing those things with you. I miss having the house smell up with yummy scents and you drooling and saying you can't wait to taste it all. I miss your sense of humor. I miss our lazy Sundays. I just completely miss you. I found this poem the other day and it fit so well. I am going to find it and post it on here. When you read it you will know what I am talking about. I love you so much, Tyler. The void I have is like no other. No one will ever be able to fill it. I don't feel complete anymore. I had the one thing I loved more than anything leave this world. Part of me is gone. That part of me will never come back. I will never be the person that everyone knew before. That person died the day you did. I am trying to learn to live without you still. This is the most challenging thing I have ever had to face and do. I am trying to be the Mom that you want me to be still. I want to make you proud. I want to do my best for you...always! I hope that you have a great night and you have many sweet dreams. Tonight when I am walking the dogs I will look up to the sky and smile and wonder where you are... just like I do every night. Continue to watch over us all. Be with me all the time and give me a sign from time to time to let me know you are with Mom. I love you with all my heart. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!