Dear Tyler,

I am so sorry that I didn't write to you the last couple days but things here have not been well for me as you are already aware of. I feel like sh*t for not writing, but my emotions were running high already and I was just having a difficult time with it all...still am. I am so sorry in so many ways. I know that I told you I would be alright and you had others promise you that I would be taken care of. Unfortunately, sometimes promises are broken and people change. I can't undo what people feel or how I feel so I guess it is what it is. I have no other choice but to move forward and keep my head held high. I know in time I will be ok. Right now it just hurts like hell. I am not sure how to get over this hurdle and move forward and then to still grieve losing you. It is too much to bare. I ask you to please be with Mom. I need you. I miss you so much. I love you. I know this is another short letter and I am sorry but I haven't slept much in the last few nights and I am tired. I continue to have this massive headache and I can't stop crying.. the keyboard is blurry. I promise to write more later today..it is almost 1 am now. Sweet dreams my precious son. To the moon and back is how much I love you. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!