Dear Tyler,

Today was a better day for Mom. My cold is going away and the cough is all I have now. Should be gone altogether in the next 2 days. I have decided to take your FB and put it into a Memorial page for you. I hope you don't mind. I think that with all that is going on with me right now.. I am going to start using your " new " page as my blog. That way friends and family can just go to that & they will be able to comment and post things as they want as well. I have asked for all game and other requests to stop. Only new friend requests can be added. I really hope you understand why I am doing this. I guess it is a policy of FB that if an account is not used after some time then it will be automatically deleted. I don't want this to happen so this was the only thing I could think of. I know in my heart that you are ok with this. I want to keep your memory alive in all of our family & friends. I want people to share more memories with Mom. I want to hear all the crazy laughs and stories they have of you. I can hear you now...Oh Mom... laugh while rolling your eyes & you would give me that Cheshire Cat grin of yours. You are missed by so many people. Some people didn't even know that you passed away. They moved away and life happened and were out of touch with us. I can't believe that in 4 days you have been gone for 3 months. My heart aches at the thought of this and even more every day. The tears still flow all the time. Some days I am in denial until something has to remind me that it is all real. Yesterday, a girl that I went to school with lost her son to a fatal car accident. I don't know what happened but that family is going through all that we did when we lost you. She posted on her FB page that she laid in his bed last night and just cried. She can't imagine her life without her son. My heart cried for her because I can relate. I know what she is going through. I didn't know her son but his name is Ryan Heino. If you see him..show him the ropes up there. Tell him to show his Mom a sign to let her know he is ok and safe. Hearing all this just brings everything back again for Mom. The emotions are still so raw for me. I don't know if that will ever change but I am giving it my best shot every day. I miss you dearly. I love you so much. I hope that your night is as wonderful as you want it to be. Sweet dreams my precious son. With all my love to you. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!