Dear Tyler,

Hey pumpkin! How are you doing today? Mom is doing well. Think I over did the workout video a little. I am sore all over...lol! I am all stuffy again too. Hopefully I am not getting sick again. I am hoping it has to do with not sleeping all that much last night. Seems to be the same thing each month since you passed. I don't sleep well on the 18th, 19th & 20th of the month. Maybe it is because the 18th was the last time we got to talk to each other and the other 2 days would be the phone calls, the traveling, and the worst day of my life. Reality sets in & I remember the horror of it all. I know it will be this way for a very long time but like I told you yesterday I am going to choose to not be depressed or mope around anymore. I am choosing to celebrate you every day by letting you see Mom smile and laugh and learn to enjoy life again. I want to make you proud. I want to do what I know you would want for me. I love you with all my heart. I know that there is no sadness, negativity, or pain in Heaven. I know you are happy and I want to make you even happier! 
 I wanted to say thank you for last night. When I went outside to walk the pups I looked up to the sky and saw the clouds like I never have before. The pattern was incredible. It was so cool with the Full Moon. Because of the clouds I only saw 3 stars twinkling bright. I smiled and said I loved you and missed you. I also said you were busy up there making the designs. I couldn't get over them so I went in and got my camera to capture the sky. The pictures came out pretty good. Thanks again pumpkin. You are simply amazing! 
 Everything else seems to be ok. Talk to Meme and Grandpa and Aunt Becky weekly. It makes me feel closer to home. I need that and I think they need it as well. The weather here is still so freakin hot. It is still in the high 90's and humid during the day and middle 70's at night. It rained so hard and heavy this morning and afternoon. It was crazy! Now it is sunny and humid again..lol! 
 I hope that you continue to have a wonderful afternoon, evening and night. I ask that you continue to watch over Mom and everyone else. Please help us to be safe and healthy. Protect us when we need it. I miss you so much. I love you forever and always. Fly high and free my sweet son. I will work on doing the same. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!